After Chris' famous "conscious uncoupling" from Gwyneth he is an emotional mess. But not for the reason everyone thinks. Chris will never tell anyone the true reason for his split from his wife though, he could never do that. The only thing that gives Chris a spark of hope is writing music. But his bandmates are getting more and more worried about him as it's been months since Chris' split and he doesn't seem to get any better. Eventually Chris' bad emotional state turns out to be a threat for the entire band. Chris knows the only way to end his pain is to reveal the truth, but that is a really hard thing to do. After all the truth could mean the breakdown of everything that is important to him.

After Chris harshly rejects Jonny, everything goes downhill. Only him and the receptionist of Jonny's old flat building know he's gone. Not even Guy and Will have the slightest hint of what's happening, except Chris' emotional overload. Chris must go on a long journey to find Jonny, and endure many issues on his way. He is stable for a bit, but will one horrifying surprise end it all?

Am I in love with my bestfriend? Coldplay could be ruined. Or our friendship. But that's only if he finds out.

(AU) Three years after Jonny has moved to New York City, he makes a friend, and suddenly his life begins to change dramatically.