Dan Howell's best friend (and aspired lover) Phil Lester committed suicide February 20, 2016, by hanging himself. There were no warnings. There were no letters. With no clue as to why a happy and upbeat person like Phil would want to end their life, Dan feels broken and torn apart inside from grief. A few days later, as Phil's mother and Dan are going through Phil's things, Dan finds a diary. He takes it without anyone's noticing and he reads it in hope of finding out why Phil Lester took his life. In hopes of finding out how someone or something could stop Dan's ray of sunshine from shining. (Obvious TW: contains depression, bullying. Mentions of suicide, self harm, depression, abuse. If you are triggered by any of these, I would suggest not reading. Thank you.) ••• Copyright @NeonWishes 2016

the air smells like the promise of tomorrow and nothing has ever smelled more terrifying

just when the catipillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly × sequel to 'transgender' {HIGHEST RANKING #3}

:a story about when dan kills himself and phil doesn't know what to do. so why not write letters to dan and slip them under his bedroom door: *lowercase intended* •trigger warning• [COMPLETED ON FEBRUARY 12, 2016!!!]

//trigger warning// ·Depression ·Eating Disorder ·Suicide It's like screaming... and no one can hear.

The worst phanfic out there

Dan and Phil seem to have a pretty good life. They are a couple of the most famous youtubers, the work on their own radio show, and they're best friends. Phil couldn't be any happier. But what happens when Phil finds out about the other side of Dan he hasn't met yet? WARNING: MENTIONS OF SELF HARM AND SUICIDAL TENDENCIES

*'BEST PHANFICTION' WINNER (FANFICTION AWARDS 2018)* Daniel has anxiety and crumples paper to calm himself down. Phil has ADHD and diminishes hearts to bring himself up.

Dan and Phil have been married since 2022 now they have a urge to have a baby, there both men so it's physically impossible. They want to adopt, will they be good parents read to find out (Babys age when adopted is 6 months) Highest ranking - #30 in #phan