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Depressed Dean by nobodycares15
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Dean is self harming almost all his life. Since Cas said yes to Lucifer it's worse.
Sick Brains (technically a joshler fanfic) by jfc_mickey
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ummm so this story is a lil triggering my dudes, i started writing this back when i was a cringey tumblr boi who was obsessed w tøp and drugs and also was 14. im gonna try to continue it with my gained.. wisdom? idk a bitch has seen some things and i wanna get back into writing so enjoi. (Also about the story: basically they're both sad bois but one is a closet sad boi, hopefully they don't like actually obliterate eachother? who knows? maybe you should find out?
truce. ;; a joshler fanfic by nervousgh0st
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sequel to goner
Holding Onto You (Joshler FanFic)  by Ireland_clique
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Tyler himself is struggling with family issues. He is also struggling with himself. He feels suffocated and like he can't escape. He needs to breathe. Josh is the air he needs:
Could you ever stop and wonder? (Joshler) by thebrokenpeoplee
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Tyler has depression, but he is going through recovery spectacularly, it's not a straight line but he's pretty much happy. He loves drifting off into his imagination but despises plummeting into negative thoughts. He can't complain. He is so close to recovery. But, sometimes he has to stop and wonder, because, what if he crashes and burns? Josh has depression, but it seems his only worries are when Tyler's face goes blank and he disappears into his own thoughts. He loves Tyler with all his heart and more but despises how Tyler doesn't seem to notice that Josh isn't as "fine" as he said he is. He can't complain. He doesn't want Tyler to worry when the person is so close to recovery. But, sometimes he has to stop and wonder, because, what if putting Tyler before himself kills him? // "Why are you wearing long sleeves all the time? I'm worried." // Warnings - depression, SELF-HARM etc. Recovered!tyler Depressed!josh // Au paragraph/sentence per chapter.
goner. ;; a joshler fanfic by nervousgh0st
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Tyler is depressed, schizophrenic and self harms. he has two best friends, Josh dun and frank iero. Tyler has had a thing for Josh for a while, but when things get bad will Josh be there for him? **trigger warning** also there's a decent amount of Frank Iero, Frerard and some Ryan Ross in this
Won't you stay alive? (Joshler fanfiction) by nootnoot69
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(contains triggers: eating disorders, self harm, suicidal thoughts.) Tyler Joseph, an average 15 year old, an abusive home life, no real friends his only escape is his music, and well...No one will ever know, no one will ever care. Josh Dun is 17 years old and one of the coolest guys you'll ever meet, red hair, nose piercing and gauges. his family love him. heck, everyone loves him. so what will happen if these kids meet? the obvious I guess. ''he promised he would fix him and he never broke his promise.'' (i'm terrible at writing these.)
Save me from myself (Joshler AU) by twentyfun
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Tyler is a freshman starting school, he's been bullied brutally and has switched schools many times because of it. His home life isn't that great and he's severely depressed.. That is until he meets Josh, a mild mannered punk who plays the drums that happens to be very intrigued by Tyler.
Polarize- a joshler fanfic by pilot_time
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Tyler is a very depressed kid who struggles with depression and anxiety. But then he meets Josh. And he turns his whole life upside down. In a good way. (Also I know that Tyler and Josh had brothers and sisters and a dad but that's not how I wanted to write it lol)
Don't Go >> Joshler by riceyoongi
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"Please, don't go," "I have to. I'm sorry." ••••• This book is going to get really sad in the end, sorry in advance. i also cried just editing this so good luck fam.