11:11pm "I wish my my life was easier. I wish I was happy. I wish my dad wasn't so mean. I wish my mom was still alive.-" 11:12pm "-I wish Philip Michael Lester loved me back." [Dans life was horrid. But he tried not to let it show at school. Read about dans journey about him overcoming his life problems and falling in love with a straight boy named Phil Lester.] WARNING: Triggering Self harm Smut Boyxboy Side pairings (kickthestickz, phinzie, etc) !!!!!!!THIS IS A PHAN BOOK SO IF DAN AND PHIL dATE SOMEONE ELSE IT IS NOT PERMANENT!!!!!!!!!

Phil Lester is an upper-middle class boy, with great grades and an optimistic outlook on life. Dan Howell is just another regular guy that has been dubbed as a bad influence, even though all he wants to do is protect his little brother. Dan brings out the worst in Phil, but Phil brings out the best in him. Although they seem to be nearly perfect personality wise, the universe seems to be working against them. Will it be worth getting through the obstacles for each other? Or will they decide to let each other go?

"Mommy,what is gay? "It's when a man likes another man in the way mommies and daddies do.But it's a bad thing,it's a mental illness" And that was the moment when i realized i was mentally ill

"She won't ever know." Phil's sister Amy has a new boyfriend, Dan. There's just one problem... Dan's a fuck boy. Phil knows about Amy's boyfriend, mostly because she won't shut up about him. Phil broke up with his boyfriend a month ago due to abuse. One day, when Dan decides to sleep over and Amy has to leave for a few minutes, things get heated. Can Dan and Phil hide their relationship from Amy? Will Amy ever find out? Will Dan let his feeling show?

[completed] philly: who's this? danhowell: your future husband ; copyright © 2016 //highest ranking: #4

"you can't love someone you met online!" © ScreamingSirens 2015

Part 1 of the infamous series. Feelings appear. Sparks fly. Love rises. Problems occur. Please note: This story is now very old (7 years old in 2020) and I'd like to think my writing has improved since then! There are a bunch of cringey parts and bad writing in here, but enjoy and thanks for reading! :)