sometimes the only way to explain how you're feeling is through concepts. this is how i feel. a collection of thoughts, sometimes incomplete and occasionally inconsistent. ideas revolving around the concept of love and it's relevance to the mind. words that have been spontaneously complied together in the midst of a moment to create pieces of story. take it as you will, these words were written with no intent of being shared. but, if there's anything i've learned, it's that there is power in so many of the things that we take for granted. our words, our time, our emotions, our relationships, our beliefs, our fuck ups, our triumphs, our heartaches, and everything and anything thats in between. and so, here is all of the things i should have said sooner.

Will a baby strengthen or will it ruin their friendship?

Elevators. Airplanes. Palaman ng Sandwich. Yung feeling na papunta ka pa lang at excited ka pa lang sa pupuntahan mo. Yung feeling na palapit pa lang yung birthday mo. Yung feeling na palapit pa ang isa pang espesyal na araw. Yung feeling na ilang oras na lang ay pasko na. Yung feeling na tatlong araw na lang simula na ulit ng pasukan. Yung feeling na nasa gitna ka pa lang at di ka pa nakakarating. Yung feeling na malapit na pero hindi pa. Yun ang laging gusto ko. Yung nasa gitna pa lang. Yung nasa gitna ka ng dalawang bagay. Gitna ng isang building. Gitna ng langit at lupa. Gitna ng dalawang matatabang tinapay. Gitna ng byahe papuntang disneyland. Mas gusto ko yung feeling tuwing nagbabyahe kesa doon sa nakarating ka na. Mas gusto ko yung feeling na may inaantay ka kesa doon sa nandyan na. I always like the things in between. "You only like things in between, Coreen. You only like the chase... You only want me chasing after you. You don't want to decide... Pero pakiusap naman, magdesisyon ka na, kasi tao rin naman ako, nasasaktan. And you? I don't think nararamdaman mo yung sakit na nararamdaman ko... You are just too heartless."