I need to understand why the things that happened to me did. I need to understand what I'm dealing with; but I just can't seem to do that. Warning: extremely triggering content.

"Herr Schneider, it's so good to know that you've finally decided to take me up on my offer" he said joyfully, his blue eyes shining almost as much as his pearly white teeth. I had to admit he was attractive, exceptionally attractive. His jet black hair, satin white skin, piercing blue eyes, and astounding smile seemed to be brought out even more due to the crisp charcoal designer suit he was wearing. His entire aura left me at a loss for words, I could only smile and weakly nod. "Before we begin, do you have any questions about our agreement ?" (Christoph Schneider × Richard Kruspe)