josh has been out of school a lot recently, but that's just what tyler wants to believe. he doesn't want to believe josh is dead. he does anything and everything to make himself believe his boyfriend is still alive. then it hits him. hard. "well if he's dead, then i should be too." TRIGGER WARNING: suicidal thoughts and actions toward the end. if you are triggered easily, this fic isn't for you. also each chapter will be about one paragraph, maybe more maybe less. (lowercase intended)

(Cover made by the amazing @alltimetrashcan) Tyler: your typical shy new kid Josh: the unpopular nice guy When the two meet, they become best friends. All is happy and well-with a few bumps along the way, of course- and everything goes as a happy Joshler you'd expect. Until you forget to expect the unexpected. Read more to find out what happens ;) •Sorry this description sucks, the book is better•

In which you and Tyler have a conversation everyday, but he's the only one talking. {all respect to jenna because jenna is amazing and she and tyler are goals} {{it's just fiction}} {{{trigger warning: mentions of abuse, depression, and suicide}}}

In which you are silent everyday, but Tyler isn't. {again, all respect to jenna because jenna is amazing and she and tyler are goals} {{it's just fiction}} {{{trigger warning: mentions of abuse, anxiety, depression, and suicide}}}