(this story includes triggering things such as: bullying, self harm, abuse, etc) Dean Winchester's life is complicated. After his mothers death, he has basically raised his little brother, Sam. Their father has hardly been in their lives, his job as a drug dealer requiring him to disappear for long periods of time and causing them to move around a lot. But when their dad finally gets arrested, a man named Bobby Singer takes the boys in and enrolls them in a more permanent school. And as if his father's incident wasn't hard enough on him, Dean begins to question his sexuality when he meets quiet, introverted, and (he must admit) quite cute Castiel.

To you a scar is a scar and a mark is a mark but to your soulmate it is a mystery. Twenty two year old Castiel or "Cas" Novak is curious to the oil smudges and messy scrawl and twenty four year old Dean Winchester is fascinated with the small notes and creative scribbles that dance across his arms throughout the day. Its too bad times, dates, and places are murked by fate.

When your born you see no colour, but when you first touch your soulmate you see every colour under the sun. If your soulmate dies your world turns black and white once again. Sam saw colour twice but lost it. John saw it once and lost it. Dean has never seen colour, he's lived in black and white since the day he was born. It was the same for Castiel. Until he raised the righteous man from Perdition. Dean never understood why he could see colour when he came back from Hell, but never questioned it. Until Castiel died for the first time and his world lost every drop of colour.

After both families need a fresh start, the Novaks and the Winchesters become neighbours. Dean and Castiel, however, refuse to talk to anybody but something brings them both out of their shells.

Castiel hates Dean Winchester with a passion. Every word he said, every look he makes, ever movement he does makes the Novak hate him more and more each day. Yet, when he finally meets the mysterious member of the band, Devil's Angel, he finds himself falling in love with the unknown identity of the man. What could possibly go wrong?

Now that Cas is human, some things are a lot harder to do, but it has is plus sides. Feelings, for one thing, are both pleasant and not pleasant, except when they involve Dean. Nor Dean, Cas or Sam know whether Cas will ever get his grace back, and what is going on with Metatron in heaven. Luckily, they get some help from Charlie and a certain other angel. Together, they try to do what's right, and it leads them to doing things they never thought they'd be doing. Word count: 37k

"They say relationships are built on trust. So what happens when you can't trust someone, but you simply can't leave them?" Dean is a normal boy. He lives in a small town with his brother and goes to college, like any normal boy. But there's also a twist to Dean. His college years were horrible. A group of boys made it living hell and Dean found it impossible to stay alive. Just when he thought things could never improve, there's a new boy in town. And he goes to the same college as Dean. He quickly realises that this boy means something to him. Can Cas save Dean and keep him alive any longer? The answer is yes, he can. Dean and Cas soon find themselves in a very committed relationship. They'd do anything for eachother. But Cas starts doing things behind Deans back, and it's having a bad effect on him. And the tables turn. Can Dean save Cas and keep him alive any longer?

Modern day world, modern day challenges is what Castiel Novak says everyday throughout collage. His first day at Lincoln Day University for computer programming goes fine until some big shot Dean Winchester shows up to make his life hell. Maybe this guy isn't so bad but making him come around is another story book that's Castiel isn't sure he wants to open. He wants nothing to do with this thug who screws everything up in his path. But hey, waiting is just a game anyways, better find something to do while sitting patiently.

Dean has some strange thoughts about his savior that claims to be an Angel of The Lord---Who Dean thinks (for some reason) is kinda hot. CAS'S FIRST APPEARANCE

A drunkin' Castiel comes to Dean one night and while the two boys are alone things take a surprising turn forcing the boys to come to terms with their feels for each other.