"Phil Lester is the literal sunshine of my life. If I didn't have him in my life, I may have been dead by now. Every day still sucks, but whenever I'm with Phil, my heart remembers that life is worth living. The only reason my life is worth living is to be next to Phil. To see him smile, to hear him laugh, to listen to his voice, to watch him move...everything. Everything that he does brings the much-needed light into my life." Dan Howell has many struggles within himself, despite his successful YouTube career. The only one who truly helps him is his best mate, Phil Lester. Dan has been madly in love with Phil since the first day they met. However, Dan knows that it is inevitable that Phil will never return the feeling because he is only interested in women. As Dan attempts to battle his own demons, Phil seems to be quite happy and even ends up dating a beautiful girl. Unfortunately, this makes Dan's mental state even worse. What will happen to Dan? Will he ever confess his strong feelings for his best friend? Will he ever overcome the ongoing war in his head?

Dan's lost in a world of depression, drugs and self harm, and he's had enough. Well, that's until he meets a blue eyed boy called Phil in the most unexpected way. [COMPLETED] TRIGGER WARNING Highest rankings: #1 IN DANIEL HOWELL #9 IN AMAZINGPHIL #12 IN PHAN #7 IN DAN #1 IN PHANFICTION #335 IN DEPRESSION

[COMPLETED] when dan buys cigarettes to a store who has a cute shop assistant

dan likes long words. he also likes phil lester. short story.

*'BEST PHANFICTION' WINNER (FANFICTION AWARDS 2018)* Daniel has anxiety and crumples paper to calm himself down. Phil has ADHD and diminishes hearts to bring himself up.

the air smells like the promise of tomorrow and nothing has ever smelled more terrifying

*AmazingPhil wants to send you a message!* Phil: Hey! Dan: Hi...? Phil: I'm Phil! Dan: I can see that. (Self-harm warning!¡) (Okay, so apparently I have to tell you there's smut because people WILL get triggered :D )

[completed] philly: who's this? danhowell: your future husband ; copyright © 2016 //highest ranking: #4