'Oh God Phil, I know you've messed up in the past, but this time you've really done it.' Dan and Phil go to a restaurant one November evening to visit Dan's parents. It all seems like a pleasant evening, until Phil accidentally exposes his relationship with Dan, who knows his parents are severely homophobic. Mistakes are made, and Phil ends up in hospital. Dan, alone, waits for weeks for Phil to wake up from his coma state, until one day, he decides he can't wait any longer, so he tries to end his life to be with Phil, whom he thinks is dead. Phil wakes up, only to find Dan is not by his side, but on his way to a bridge over the Thames as he prepares to jump into the murky waters and take his own life. ( WARNINGS: swearing, a few TWs, anger and violence )

When Dan and Phil decide to take a walk around London for a night as it all goes well. When the unthinkable happens. For nearly a week Dan almost thought he would never see Phil the way he was before that night.

Author note: YOU HAVE TO READ THE WHOLE THING TO UNDERSTAND. I hope that you understand what I was getting at with this phanfiction. I truly believe that this is one of my best ones. Triggers: any triggers that I could put here would spoil the ending, but if you're a sensitive person, then this may be hard for you to read.

Phil doesn't talks. Well, not anymore. The last time he said something, was when he didn't hate himself. And that was a long time ago. But now, everything is different. He must struggle with depression, whilst new boy Dan Howell desperately attempts to win him over. [Warning: this could be triggering at some points]

*'BEST SERIES' WINNER (FANFICTION AWARDS 2017)* FIRST BOOK IN THE 'STAINED' SERIES Meet Phil Lester, a bad boy with blood on his hands. Literally. After one night strikes, Phil turns to a group of serial killers as a distraction and soon he finds himself with a trail of dead bodies at his own fault. Meet Dan Howell, a shy boy with flowers in his hair and nail polish on his fingers. Friendless and full of anxiety, he remains alone, until said serial killer with tattoos and piercings sits right next to him in the same support group. Phil finds himself falling for Dan when his mission is to kill him, and he wants to get close, even if that means spilling the unwanted truth- and a bit of blood. (punk!phil meets pastel!dan) [rated R for language and violence/gore]

Dan and Phil meet each other during school, they become best friends. When dan shows signs of weakness, easy bruising, tiredness, night sweats and pain Phil gets extremely worried and takes him to the doctors... *sorry for the shitty description*

*'BEST PHANFICTION' WINNER (FANFICTION AWARDS 2018)* Daniel has anxiety and crumples paper to calm himself down. Phil has ADHD and diminishes hearts to bring himself up.

dan howell {musician} and phil lester {artist} were childhood best friends until phil had to move. now, nine years later, their paths cross again. ~ also includes: -frerard -ryden -peterick -kellic -tiny bit of joshler ~ chapter titles: song title ~ dan's pov famous artwork ~ phil's pov

" my name's blurry face and I care what you think. " Dan Howell has an unknown condition where he cannot see faces - no matter what he wears or does - they are always a blur. The doctors nicknamed it 'blurry face', and there's absolutely nothing they can do about it; Dan will have to live without faces. That is, until he meets Phil Lester - the 'bad boy' of Dan's new school - who's face is strangely visible to Dan; much to Dan's wonder and Phil's distaste.

{P h a n : C o m p l e t e d} "Help Me" trigger warning : suicide, self-harm