Her mother is embarrassed of her. Her father doesn't care about her. The rest of her family thinks she's a bad influence on the little ones. Society thinks she's a freak. She gets bullied at school for what she wears and listening to the wrong kind of music. Out of all this her best friend still thinks she's perfect, inside and out. She wants to get away from all the judgmental eyes and she's knows the perfect way. Suicide. She'll never commit it and leave him to defend for himself even though he says he'll be fine. But once she gets pushed over the edge, she goes as far as faking her suicide, with the help of her best friend. Jess and Ronnie have finally escaped judgmental Ohio and eloped to Rhode Island. What will they discover with their new found freedom? *Revising* DO NOT READ THIS OMG THIS IS THE MOST DISGUSTING WRITING I HAVE EVER DONE YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED

I'm Heather Parks. I'm the weakest soul there ever was. I gave up. I lost hope. I killed myself... But every day since I killed myself, I've tried to Un-kill myself. Every day since I killed myself, I've asked myself: Why? Every day since I killed myself, I die once again because of what I've done. Every day since I killed myself, I think of what I've lost. Every day since I killed myself, I wish I hadn't done it... And compared to the pain I'm feeling right now, the pains I felt during my life were nothing. Nothing at all... PRAISE FOR 'SUICIDE': "The agony is so surreal, it broadens your horizons to feel deeper. The pain is alluring." - Mahwish.A.Aleem  "Reluctant to relinquish my love for such a story , i request all of the readers to cherish it and not treat it lightly" - Maheen Irfan "The intensity of the author's emotions has a certain depth which makes the reader reflect on the different aspects of their life." - Maheen Amir