Pieces of my personal writing about toxic ness and about many mental health issues. These are just pieces of the moments of my very life changing situations that have occurred in my life. For years, I didn't know that my environment that I once thought was stable was truly unstable and very toxic. 2020, was when I truly and deeply realized the truth. The ugly truth and that is I am living in a curse that should be broken for good. This generation that I am living in now must break this vicious cycle before we destroy the next generation. We must stand up to the truth. We must learn. We must heal. We must teach and do what we preach. We must grow. We must love healthily and unconditionally. We must be compassionate and understanding. We must be truly vulnerable without feeling ashamed or being invalid from others. We must be HEARD. I'm tired of the silence.

This is just some feelings I feel towards my birth mother at times that I can't tell her in person or over the phone because I don't have anyway to contact her and even if I do I still wouldn't have the guts to tell her face to face. This is more like letters to her. I never like talking about my feelings to people in person so I just write them down. It helps me a lot when I going through tough times in my life. Maybe some of my feelings I feel might be related to other people out there in the world. So, I can and want others to know that their not the only ones going through difficulties in their lives that can be sometimes hard to cope with it all alone. Well you are longer alone in this because I can relate and understand your feelings when it comes to toxic relationships. We can relate to each other. This is my first time showing people my writing or even my feelings. So please bear with me.............. AND I'M SO SORRY FOR ANY GRAMMATICAL ERRORS IN MY WRITING!!!

Poems and shorts stories I've written about how I feel and my emotions. Hope you enjoy

I have always been a person that was and still is afraid of letting others in. I have many personal reasons why but the main reason why is because they just end up using me like I'm nothing to begin with and I don't find out the truth on time; not even before I get attached to them. When it comes to men I just ignored them, never really mind them and never really paid much attention to them because I was in my own little world but all of that changed when one specific man try to get to me out of my own little world and out of my own comfort zone and the scary part was that we both didn't even know it. Let just say that he lied his way into my life somehow. He somehow convinced me to trust him enough to let him in. During a very short and fast period of time he somehow made me feel something for him but he felt nothing for me. He never made a clarification that he didn't care for me and not even just as friends; he didn't made it clear to me that I was nothing at all. So, you can say that he used me and lied to me and eventually things turn out not too good because it was never serious for him and in a way I completely understand his point of view of things but what about mines? Does he truly know mine? No he doesn't. I really want him to know my point of view so this is a letter that I hope he reads without being or getting angry and frustrated with me. I promise I'm not trying to make things way worse for him and what it already is and I'm not trying to do any harm. Want To Know What The Letter Says?................ Then You Must Continue On Reading 📖 Thank you 🙏🏽 Sorry for any grammatical mistakes and errors. Hope you enjoy!