THIS IS NOT MY BOOK!!! I HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH THIS BOOK!!!! The original book Twist and Shout by the author from achiveofourown (Gabriel (AO3)) ALL THE CREDITS GOES TO GABRIEL AND STANDBYME!!

"he lost himself holding onto someone who didn't care about losing him." in which a boy writes anonymous letters and throws them away as airplanes. » completed as of August 17, 2015 ((Wattys2015)) ((I wrote this in the hospital and I was under the influence of a lot of drugs and painkillers, so some of the scenes probably don't make a lot of sense. I thought about editing it but I'm lazy and it was kind of funny reading back through it after I was discharged.)) ((long story short, i wasn't thinking straight and I wasn't in the right condition to produce coherent writing.))

[BoyxBoy - Completed] "Ash" is a seventeen year old high school drop out who makes his money by renting himself. It's not his ideal or dream career, but it's what it takes to pay for his necessities. When Ash finds himself in a classroom with his first ever teenage trick, things don't go as they normally would. From then on, you might just say that his life as a rent-boy takes an unusual turn. Instead of being paid to have sex, Ash is paid, by his most regular customer yet, to simply talk. It all seems too good to be true to Ash; a good lookin' lad that's actually his own age? That's a big step from the usual mid-thirty perverts he gets on street corners. You'd think it'd be a great twist to his life, right? Yeah, so did Ash. Until he finds out his tricks secret, which makes Ash wish he'd never even met the guy. Lust, suspicion and a dose of love? This rent-boy's life is about to get a whole lot better, but also a whole lot worse.

Nico isn't enjoying this whole ride called "life". Then again he hated roller coasters and anything that made him panic as a whole. He thought life couldn't get any worse, but with him causing a fallout between him and his best friend, and only friend, Matty, life just doesn't seem worth living anymore. (TRIGGER WARNING!: This story touches on themes related to mental illness and eating disorders such as depression, anxiety, and anorexia. If the mention of these are any triggers to anyone, I suggest not reading the book. There is also a lot of vulgar language and mentions of drug and alcohol abuse.)

Ivy loves Christian and Christian loves Ivy. Ivy will always love Christian. No matter what he does to him. No matter how many bruises are left on the boy's skin. No matter how hard Christian hits him, Ivy loves him. And he knows Christian loves him, even if he shows it in a different way. Ivy needs help.

Loving you is a mistake. I should of listened and yet I am stupid enough to believe your pathetic lies. You showed me life is worth living, you confessed your love to me and yet here I am questioning it. Everything is a game to you, finding entertainment to hurt others and simply show how cool you are. I knew you were trouble and yet like others I fall for your charms. Finding out the truth, I wished it wasn't true and the fact that you didn't deny it makes it seem so real. Congratulations, you win, I've fallen in love you, I given you something so precious to me and now I feel so cheap. So go ahead and claim your prize from your friends, show the world what type of monster you truly are.

Emerson is miserable with his life. He’s constantly bullied, and his boyfriend, Matt, sides with his tormentors. When Emerson hides in the school’s boiler room to escape everyone, he doesn’t expect to find a journal. The journal looks simple enough, but inside, it contains the shocking story of a boy named Nash. As Emerson reads deeper into the heart wrenching words of Nash’s life, he is unaware that his life is about to change forever.

Aiden's life is a lonely mess of suffering and torment. He's bullied daily, and abused by his mother. He's fed up with it, and on the 52nd day of the year, he's going to give up. It's all planned. So why did that have to be the day The New Boy turned up? Why did he have to go and spoil it all? It isn't about being gay. It's about being gay, and living with it.

Dawson has had it rough. Not as bad as some, worse than others. He lives in constant secret, heart ache and pain. After his parents died he under went a transformation, rendering him unrecognizable. After three years of pain, cutting, and one suicide attempt, he returns to his hometown. As Dawson hides his identity, it will become harder and harder to seal away the truth when faces from the past start revealing themselves, including his gorgeous ex best friend Alec. Only Dawson isn't the only one with secrets and when a lie reaches Dawson's ears, it will take all he has in him to protect the one thing he has left. Himself. Dealing with depression is hard, and Dawson will have to learn it's not something that can be handled alone. He'll have to open up his heart once more, even if it risks him getting hurt, if he wants to achieve happiness. ---------------------------- This is a trigger warning, to anyone that has problems with self-harm I recommend you don't read this as there are some graphic scenes. Also, this is a boyxboy story, so if you don't like hot steamy action between two boys, this is not the story for you. If you don't like it you shouldn't even be reading this anyway and I will not tolerate hate. You do not choose your sexuality and no one else has the right to make someone feel bad about who they are. Also, if any of you are having problems, or the story has triggered you, please inbox me. I love to hear from my readers.