"So, what exactly happened that day, mister Lester?" The 31- year old looked up as his last name was mentioned. "Just call me Dan.." He swallowed, and stroked the ring around his finger with his thumb, "Sorry- it was-.. It was love, anger, fear, sadness- It was ... Just complicated."
(COMPLETE)Trigger Warning: Putting it right out there THIS WILL TRIGGER SOME PEOPLE. There is suicide/suicidal thoughts, self harm, and death. Rated R: Very Smutty. VERY. Dan loves phil, but Phil loves someone else. Can Dan get Phil to realize his love for him or not. And when he does will he be able to keep his love...
Warning :attempted suicide , cutting trigger warning : do not read if these are triggering or if depression or suicide attempt I'd triggering you have been warned read at own risk . These are undelivered texts from Dan to phil. Dan is suffering depression Phil doesn't know Dan wants help But Phil doesn't know
❌TRIGGER WARNING❌ I dont wanna say much other than theres suicide. im sorry in advance
As Phil finds love, Dan is left alone. He hides his feelings for Phil, until he finds out that Phil's new love, is hiding something. Something big. Trying to find out what it is, Dan gets hurt and drags Phil down with him. Will they escape the arms of Phil's "love"? Or will they be forced to stay and hide the secrets...
Phil catches Dan cheating on him, and the two spiral down a dark path that inevitably brings them back together. Two liner
Dan's better now. He's been clean for over a year. He takes his medication and his relationship with Phil is going strong. But then one day something happens. A terrible accident. Dan visits everyday, but with Phil in a coma, can Dan keep himself together - or will he start to fall apart without Phil to pick up the pi...
"Where are you?" - After a fight between the two best friends, Dan and Phil, out of anger one of them runs off, leaving the other one alone wonder if they'll ever see their best friend again. blah blah gay motherfuckers - A/N im telling you now so don't complain, chapters are short!! This story was initially a one sh...
Phil has always been there for Dan through thick and thin that get through everything there always going to do there for each other Well that's how it was planned People get in the way but love doesn't go away Can they make it? Through thick and thin or is it just to emotional?
"I will never love anyone. I will never feel the need to say some sappy shit like, 'You are the love of my life. Everything I have and everything I am is yours forever', okay?" ///in which phil is a player who doesn't want to commit and dan is a hopeless romantic///
"You don't always have to be brave." Phil struggles with self harm, depression and is bullied at school. The only person who knows is Dan Howell. But they aren't exactly 'friends'... God knows he could use a friend right now..... ~concept~ 1-24 ~ 2009 phan 25-40 ~ 2012 phan 40-50 ~ 2015 phan //TRIGGER WARNING//MENTIO...
Dans letters to Phil [WARNING: TRIGGERING!] I would say all the chapters except the last will be okay to read. The last chapter mentions suicide so, if triggered easily, please don't read the last chapter. I don't want anyone harming themselves xx
"𝙾𝚑, 𝚕𝚘𝚘𝚔 𝚊𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚖! 𝚃𝚠𝚘 𝚕𝚒𝚝𝚝𝚕𝚎 𝚗𝚞𝚖𝚋𝚎𝚛 𝚏𝚒𝚟𝚎𝚜! 𝙸𝚝'𝚜 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢'𝚛𝚎...𝚍𝚘𝚙𝚙𝚎𝚕𝚐ä𝚗𝚐𝚎𝚛𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝚎𝚊𝚌𝚑 𝚘𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚘𝚛 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐." _"𝙸 𝚍𝚘𝚗'𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚔 𝚠𝚎 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚏𝚒𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎 "𝚍𝚘𝚙𝚙𝚎𝚕𝚐ä𝚗𝚐𝚎𝚛" 𝚍𝚎𝚏𝚒𝚗𝚒𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗, 𝙺𝚕𝚊𝚞𝚜. 𝚆𝚎 𝚍𝚘𝚗'𝚝...
Dan and Phil, or danisnotonfire and AmazingPhil, are best friends who share a flat. Nothing more, nothing less. Until, of course, something happens which makes them both realize how much they mean to each other. Is it worth jeopardizing their friendship for something that probably won't work?
I breathed out, letting the air fan over his earlobe. Then I seductively whispered, "Don't be a hypocrite. You already have enough bad qualities. Prick." {or the one where Dan's a billionaire and Phil's struggling to get by} STARTED - 10/06/16 COMPLETED - 11/12/16
I've read a bunch of phan, so why not write one? Dan Howell's life couldn't be any better at the moment. He has met the most beautiful, charming, kind girl he could ever imagine, and she loves him back. Everything is perfect... but not for Phil. Phil Lester has always been in love with Dan since the first moment he fi...
Dan has a hard time at school and doesn't have any friends. Phil notices Dan and sees what he does to himself. Phil try to help him. Soon Dan slowly begins to fall in love with Phil. But will Phil fall in love with Dan or not? Will they stay friends or will they hate each other after Dan confesses his feelings? To fin...
[Complete] Phil was his first best friend in the eighteen years of his life. When Phil first started YouTube, his best friend died, and he hadn't met Dan yet. When they did meet, everything changed. - How conceited does one have to be to show no tolerance for the people they care about? - This story is strictly in t...
Dan is secretly suffering from depression. On the outside he seems bubbly and happy, but on the inside he wishes for it to all be over. When his friend, Phil, unexpectedly invites him to stay at his apartment, Dan struggles to keep up the glass that was protecting him. Will Phil help clean up the pieces? TRIGGER WARNI...
In which Dan is a punk and rude to everyone with drugs problems, and Phil is a quiet shy nerd who reads a lot of books. Phil is openly gay while Dan isn't. Dan gets into a bunch of fights and always gets in trouble and Phil doesn't understand why he acts how he does. dans always been interested as to why Phil never t...
Dan's lost in a world of depression, drugs and self harm, and he's had enough. Well, that's until he meets a blue eyed boy called Phil in the most unexpected way. [COMPLETED] TRIGGER WARNING Highest rankings: #1 IN DANIEL HOWELL #9 IN AMAZINGPHIL #12 IN PHAN #7 IN DAN #1 IN PHANFICTION #335 IN DEPRESSION
TRIGGER WARNING. THIS STORY CONTAINS MENTIONS OF RAPE, SELF INJURY, DEATH AND ATTEMPTED SUICIDE. Can Dan save Phil? Phil is suicidal and Dan is the only one who's there for him. Can he alone save Phil?
After Phil moved out to be with his new girlfriend Dan has mostly given up on life. No one would ever love him. No one would ever care for him, not the same way Phil did. He can only recall their memories. But they are starting to fade, everything seems foggy in Dan's mind. Nothing is laid out for him. With all hope g...
Dan and Phil are two very popular YouTube stars. And they love each other but neither knows the other feels this way. And when Dan's cousin gets involved?Trigger warning. Depression and self harm. Possible Charter death. Stay safe while reading. Love ya! --Complete--
{edited} "won't you go to someone else's sleep? won't you go to someone else's head? haven't you taken enough from me? won't you torture someone else's sleep?" TW : depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, actual suicide attempt. read at your own risk.
You're favourite youtube stars, Dan and Phil, meet each other and decide to move in. Along the way is romance, tears and heartbreak. *NOTICE* Trigger Warning. If you struggle with anxiety, self harm or depression, please read with caution as your safety is more important than reads.
Dan and Phil reveal their true feelings for each other but will their romance last? Follow Dan and Phil in this story full of unfortunate events and find out if they get their happy ending. [Contains: Selfharm / eating disorder / suicidal thoughts ] If you enjoyed this story, please vote, comment and follow me for mo...
Dan and Phil are both secretely in love with eachother, but both are too scared tell one another. So, when at a party they are both dared to tell the truth about eachother, will they finally open up? Or just shy away like how it has always been? What will happen then?
"Phil Lester is the literal sunshine of my life. If I didn't have him in my life, I may have been dead by now. Every day still sucks, but whenever I'm with Phil, my heart remembers that life is worth living. The only reason my life is worth living is to be next to Phil. To see him smile, to hear him laugh, to listen t...
