DISCLAIMER: This story is mature because it will have some self harm in it. It will also have some swearing due to that's how Dan actually talks. This is not about Phan being real. I'm sorry to disappoint you. Now onto what it is really about: Dan Howell is becoming more and more depressed. His family, his community, not even his best friend, Phil Lester, can help him. He believes he's a lost cause, and he's a mistake. He tries to hide it best he can, but some nights, it's just too much. During this, he's lost his will to smile. He'll fake smiles for videos and pictures, but he's lost a reason to genuinely smile.

(tw: s*lf-h*rm, mentions of s*lf-h*rm, d*pr*ss*d scenes. May be triggering for some. Read at your own limit, please!) Phil Lester, a boy who's falling into depression slowly. And soon, his depression may end up falling to deep. He gets hateful and rude comments on his videos that he posts to YouTube. He even gets hate on Twitter, Facebook, and Tumblr. What did he ever do to them? What did he do to deserve any of this?? His flatmate Dan doesn't know about Phil's depression, however. All he knows (thinks, rather) is that his best friend is staying strong through all of the hateful things he gets from people. But in reality, that's not what Phil is doing at all. He's not staying strong through the hate. He's just faking the smile for Dan so he wouldn't get so worried about him. Sure, Dan might be able to crack some real smiles out of him once in a while, but not every time. He also wears long sleeves and thick bracelets to hide the scars of his pain. He acts like his normal quirky, adorable, funny, weird self when making YouTube videos, when around his friends and family, when having a meet-up with fans (or just being around them in general), when out in public, etc. Phil hadn't told anyone at all about his depression. And he probably wouldn't anytime soon, either. His fans didn't know, his friends didn't know, his family didn't know, Dan didn't know... nobody knew. But one day, would people push him over his limit? Would Dan be able to save him in time? © 2016 by bluetroyee. ALL RIGHTS RESERVED.

This is my second fanfiction with @ImNotOkBecauseMCR. Dan is at the lowest point in his life. He'd lost everything. Until Mia comes along and he puts a plan into action. Can Mia help Dan or make everything worse?

*TRIGGER WARNING* Dan Howell has been bullied for as long as he can remember. Phil Lester is the bully. Phil doesn't want to be a bully anymore but will Dan forgive him. Also this story is very cringe, I'm sorry haha and yes I'm aware it moves kinda fast but I want it like that This story is very bad, sorry 😂

Dan hated his life and that wasn't even an understatement. Each day he wished he had never woken up as he was tormented by those who were meant to love him. Just because they were meant to love him doesn't mean they did. He was suffering and was so close to giving up. Then he met Phil. Phil changed everything. TW: Abuse (both physical and emotional), depression, self harm, kind of a suicide attempt although the person doesn't get very far with it, Dan's kind of mute COVER CREDIT TO @DOODLE5SOS

Dan Howell is invisible. That's all he knows how to be. Terrified of standing out, he is happy going unnoticed by his peers, finding company in only the old rock and roll songs on his iPod. But Dan's life is turned upside-down when a boy in his drama class takes him under his wing, introducing him to a world of excitement he never could have imagined. Through the good and the bad, Dan's new life thrills him and leaves him wondering ...what does it mean to truly be alive? pairs: Phan and KickTheStickz tw: language, sexual content, abuse, depression, death, suicide, medication, drugs, parents, alcohol ENTIRELY WRITTEN FROM DAN'S POV Note: This fic features no main character death, only mentions of death.

Dan Howell and Phil Lester are just alike but come from different sides of the fence. Taking this into account: They've never met. But trying to save their lives by joining a crappy support group changes everything. The support group doesn't help anything, but at least now they know eachother's names. × Trigger Warning ×

"So, what exactly happened that day, mister Lester?" The 31- year old looked up as his last name was mentioned. "Just call me Dan.." He swallowed, and stroked the ring around his finger with his thumb, "Sorry- it was-.. It was love, anger, fear, sadness- It was ... Just complicated."

(COMPLETE)Trigger Warning: Putting it right out there THIS WILL TRIGGER SOME PEOPLE. There is suicide/suicidal thoughts, self harm, and death. Rated R: Very Smutty. VERY. Dan loves phil, but Phil loves someone else. Can Dan get Phil to realize his love for him or not. And when he does will he be able to keep his love...

Warning :attempted suicide , cutting trigger warning : do not read if these are triggering or if depression or suicide attempt I'd triggering you have been warned read at own risk . These are undelivered texts from Dan to phil. Dan is suffering depression Phil doesn't know Dan wants help But Phil doesn't know