One woman, Mary, and one man named Myles. A story of a romance between a rockstar and a girl he meets on a summer evening. Myles begins to fancy Mary when he steals a glance of her at the bar they always find themselves in, but the busy rockstar life that Myles is leading doesn't allow him to spend more than the summer with her, and so he thinks of her and relives the memories until he meets her again, a year after their summer meeting. For Mary, it's not much different. She finds out some information about where he is and writes a letter to him. A letter in which she begs for help because she's struggling hard with addiction, or the way she calls it "Self-medication to suicide". And when they meet again, he finds that, after all the time that passed, she's changed, but he still sees the Mary that he loves. He writes a letter to her and she flies over to him, they decide they want to stay together and Myles takes her on tour with him and in order to help her, hires a sober person to be her supervisor so that he can always know she's okay. And with that, their relationship of unknown highs and uncharted lows begins... (Sometimes irregular updates)

For suicide awareness...

The meaning of love. Eicca Toppinen x Perttu Kivilaakso (Apocalyptica)

Under influences of The Cure song called "Pictures of You". Hot slash with a lot of emotions. Eicca Toppinen x Perttu Kivilaakso (Apocalyptica)

He would stand, shoulders hunched and eyebrows furrowed, in front of the mirror for the longest time, primping and preening himself to flawlessness; wholly disappointed in what he saw. He’d quickly grow frustrated with himself, hating himself for the way he looked. He’d glare disgustedly at every mirror, sometimes even at the translucent image reflected onto plain glass, no matter how long he’d stand in front of it. Failure and misery would bubble up in his stomach. He would never let it out; he would swallow it down and force it to be quiet. Desperately, he’d ignore the silent screams self-hatred that swelled and merged throughout his entire being, that seemed to get louder and louder with each passing glance.

Perttu pulled back to rest his head against the cushion of the sofa as he let out a loud, throaty moan. Eicca attacked the exposed skin of his friend’s throat with his teeth, provoking pants and whimpers from the man mewling in pleasure beneath him — The hickey that would be left there would be marvelous. “T-This didn’t happen last time.” The smaller hissed through tightly gritted teeth. His desire for the blonde was somewhere in the atmosphere, and he was too clouded by lust to even think of anything else.

NOTE: This is based on Slipknot's song "The Virus Of Life". This is also another Apocalyptica AU, except this time it's supernatural. Eicca Toppinen is a sexually abused eighteen year old who has all the odds stacked up against him in a brand new society where bruises and pleads for help can simply be dismissed. His parents hate him simply because of his presence and his existence. His sisters have been sent away to a different place so they wouldn't have to live the life he's living. And in high school, he doesn't seem to catch a break from the abuse - instead he's just abused even more. And if that wasn't enough, he has a persistent stalker who will stop at nothing to get what they want from him. All of society has turned brutal. Not only that, but Eicca is holding a heavy secret that only he and his parents know about. But all of everything Eicca knew and lived was going to change when he meets Perttu, a person holding their hopes and dreams high enough for no one else to reach them. With his entire family in tact with wealth and riches, Perttu doesn't have much to worry about on his clock, minus a few exceptions. Even though Perttu knows what's out there in society now, he doesn't like to pay it any mind too often, because he knows what happens when he does. Two boys living the most uncommon lives can change all the odds that are stacked against them day by day. But the thing is, with all the flaming conflict, will they be able to do it? Will they be strong enough to plow through the sorrow and misery the events will have to offer?

"From my new vantage point all I could see were a worn pair of black and white high-top converse. Then my eyes traveled up the length of tight black denim that encompassed two very slender, very familiar legs. 'Fuck no.' I thought to myself, nervously lifting my eyes higher. 'Fuck no fuck no fuck no.'"

A young woman goes to a HIM concert with her boyfriend, Leo. One thing leads to another, and before she knows it her whole world is turned upside down. Will she choose to be with Leo or Ville, or will she even have the choice?

Just a little something that popped in my head earlier. I haven't written one of these in a long time and wanted to try again. I started writing this Ville fic up on my phone and couldn't stop. lol! I'll try to update as often as I can. Also, I'm not entirely sure where exactly I want it to go just yet, I figure I'll just let it flow the way it wants to before I start trying to map out how I want it to be.