Rating: Explicit//Rated R Archive Warning: This story contains cutting/self-mutilation, drug and alcohol use and abuse, major character death, mental health issues and sexual content. Please refrain from reading if you are uncomfortable with the above mentioned. Words: 15'450 Status: Unfinished * Alex Hughes is a drunk - which isn't helped by her job as a local barmaid which she landed following the death of both her parents. She lives alone in solitude barely making it alive, only with the help from her beloved best friend, Ben Kowalewicz does she realise that she has a problem which brews much deeper than just an addiction. One night, during her shift, three men were her costumers; little did she know that they would change her life forever as she begins to fight her addiction alongside one of these men who also indulges in an x-rated romance, a selfish romance, a chemical romance.