In first person, discover your own life occurrences with two crushes at hand. Who will you pick?

Title says everything :)

[WARNING: Contains suicidal thoughts, self harm, and other bad thing. Please read at your own risk] • • • • • • • • • • • Ｌ Ｏ Ａ Ｄ Ｉ Ｎ Ｇ • • • • • • • • • • • •~ Chat Room Is Open ~• ??? Is typing .... ???: I love you... *ERROR* *ERROR* •~ Chat Room Has Shut Down ~• "They will never love you." Oh... Okay. • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • Started: December 20th, 2016 • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • •

Fate is ｎｏｔ by our side. Happiness is ｎｏｎｅｘｉｓｔｅｎｔ. Our love story is ｅｍｐｔｙ. Cliche moments ｎｅｖｅｒ last. He was my light, that stayed bright. It stayed bright until that light only turned into a flicker. Barely able to stay on. Mine gone forever. No matter how hard I try to reach him, I only get farther back. My screams were empty and couldn't be heard to the boy I loved. The universe never wanted our story to be happy, but I still try to reach our happy ending. Even at the cost of my life, I try. I try so much. So why... Ｗｈｙ..... Ｃａｎ'ｔ Ｉ Ｒｅａｃｈ Ｙｏｕ？ • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • Story Info: -Trigger warnings will be placed before the scene happens -Started: January 25th, 2017 -Collab with Space PopTarts! (Thank you for collaborating with me!)