*WARNING* contains mentions of self harm, suicide, anorexia, rape, death, depression and PTSD don't complain if you get butthurt

tried to but it wasn't meant to be story contains trigger subjects (suicide, depression, self harm, homophobia etc read at your own risk pls) no. 5 in #vessel no. 13 in #blurryface no. 316 in #twentyonepilots no. 110 in #tøp

tyler is tiny, he wears frilly socks and carries around plushies wherever he goes. josh is tough, he smokes and getting laid is apart of his daily routine. they meet.

Josh has attempted suicide multiple times. It never works. He has made a list: Tie a noose - not when your mother is visiting. Swallow pills - 1. maybe something more powerful than paracetamol. 2. Ibuprofen and paracetamol = hospital Main vein in wrist - deeper. Bridge - water apparently saves lives. Building - 1. people are curious and act as saviours. 2. Higher building needed. 3. CPR seems common knowledge. It seems the universe just doesn't want him to die. His roommate and boyfriend (Tyler) don't want him to die either. The problem is it seems the only thing josh has been successful at is hiding his suicidal tendencies from said boyfriend. Long sleeves are easy to wear all the time, also, even though they have been together for many years josh is asexual so there's never seemed to have been a time when Tyler has seen him without a shirt. All of this is of course until, after living together for all of five months, Tyler, being the curious person he is, finds Josh's list crushed on the bedroom floor (how careless). And, oh, the guilt that consumes a man so happy he has been blind to sadness for so long is simply overwhelming. Maybe Josh should've been more careful. Maybe Tyler should've been more observant. // "You are a noose and I need you to unwrap yourself from my neck." // Warnings - suicide, self-harm, kinda mentions physical abuse (not really but I'll include it anyway), (kinda) emotional abuse, (kinda) toxic relationship Suicidal!josh Unhelpful!tyler // Au

Tyler has depression, but he is going through recovery spectacularly, it's not a straight line but he's pretty much happy. He loves drifting off into his imagination but despises plummeting into negative thoughts. He can't complain. He is so close to recovery. But, sometimes he has to stop and wonder, because, what if he crashes and burns? Josh has depression, but it seems his only worries are when Tyler's face goes blank and he disappears into his own thoughts. He loves Tyler with all his heart and more but despises how Tyler doesn't seem to notice that Josh isn't as "fine" as he said he is. He can't complain. He doesn't want Tyler to worry when the person is so close to recovery. But, sometimes he has to stop and wonder, because, what if putting Tyler before himself kills him? // "Why are you wearing long sleeves all the time? I'm worried." // Warnings - depression, SELF-HARM etc. Recovered!tyler Depressed!josh // Au paragraph/sentence per chapter.

Tyler loves Josh and wants him to recover, Josh doesn't think he can recover, not until he's reached the right weight. // "You need to eat more than that to survive. Please, I care about you." "Don't worry Tyler. It's all under control." // Au // Warnings - eating disorders, mentions self-harm, suicide etc. Eating disorder!josh Helpful!tyler // Josh's thoughts are loosely based one my own so there's no need to complain about how unrealistic it is

"I love you Ruby." He whispered. He let go of the cold hand and stepped on the podium -Not my work, but I just love this sm so here it is

Tyler is depressed, schizophrenic and self harms. he has two best friends, Josh dun and frank iero. Tyler has had a thing for Josh for a while, but when things get bad will Josh be there for him? **trigger warning** also there's a decent amount of Frank Iero, Frerard and some Ryan Ross in this

used to be #1 in fanfiction not my story. link is in story.