This is on hiatus and I don't know when it won't be anymore. I have reasons for that, and I would tell you but there's a big chance you don't give a shit, so I won't. You SHOULDN'T START READING THIS. If you finished Exchanging Feelings, pretend that this doesn't exist or you'll hate me when you get to the point where i stopped. I know some people are still reading it and I always get messages asking about updates but PLEASE understand that i'm a 16 year old girl who's just started year 12 and I have more important things to do at the moment. I'll keep writing "More than friends" (don't worry about that) on my tumblr, and i'll also upload one shots every now and then but for now I can't promise an update for this fanfic. i love you guys, I'm really sorry <3 - What the hell happened in those 3 years? :) I'll tell you. - TRIGGER WARNING: (be sure to read this. Some people have screamed at me because I didn't have a trigger warning so PLEASE READ IT BEFORE CLICKING 'START READING'.) Depression in general, INCLUDING: self harm, suicidal thoughts, eating disorders, low self esteem, abuse of medicines, psycho thoughts, mental breakdowns, rehabs (hospitals, clinics) ; DRUG and ALCOHOL usage; swearing; rape, sexual abuse, prostitution; explicit sex scenes boyxboy and girlxgirl, childhood traumas. Please don't read if you don't like drama and confusion. None of these chapters were edited (just like E.F, because I don't give a fuck. yes i really dont give a fuck my name is nicki nice to meet you)

" my name's blurry face and I care what you think. " Dan Howell has an unknown condition where he cannot see faces - no matter what he wears or does - they are always a blur. The doctors nicknamed it 'blurry face', and there's absolutely nothing they can do about it; Dan will have to live without faces. That is, until he meets Phil Lester - the 'bad boy' of Dan's new school - who's face is strangely visible to Dan; much to Dan's wonder and Phil's distaste.

Dan is different. He's learned to accept that. Well, as best he can anyway, considering he's never really had much of a choice. It's been this way for as long as he can remember, the constant runaround process of trying to feel normal. His life is built around it, trying to trick both himself and everyone he interacts with into seeing him as your average person. The isolation as he desperately tries to keep others from finding out, the bitterness that wells up inside of him each and every time he's reminded that he'll never be like everyone else, the fear that nothing will ever change. He's fated to be this way forever; a misfit from society. Isolation can only go so far though, so when he's struggling to make ends meet and he's faced with the option of looking into a serious job or taking on a roommate, he opts for what seems like the easier option at the time. It doesn't seem so easy ten failed roommates into the process, or when he sits down at a table to meet with prospect number eleven and ends up with a coffee spilled all over his lap. Potential roommate number eleven, Phil, turns out to be an insufferable optimistic ball of sunshine that Dan wants nothing to do with. His options are running out though, as are the savings he's been using to pay his rent, so he finds himself begrudgingly agreeing to let the other man move in. Neither of them have any way of knowing just what they've gotten themselves into as they shake on the matter, but time will tell.

Phil is an exchange student and Dan happens to be his host brother. GENRE: Fluff/Angst. there is smut but you shouldn't read if that's all you want. WARNINGS: Drug/Alcohol Usage, Swearing, Depression and mentions of suicide (cutting, suicide attempt), Death of family members, Childhood traumas, Car accidents, Boyxboy, Drug dealing word count: 88k+ (In case you don't know this, exchange students live with a family that's called "host family".)