"Do I fear the sleepless nights? You have no idea how long the darkness lasts when you cannot close your eyes to it. For the night is dark and full of terrors." * * * |TW: Nightmares, insomnia, anorexia, intense phobias, blood, mentions of death in nightmares, hospitals|

in a world where your moods are visible above your head, displayed through pictures and icons, it's impossible to hide your true feelings. however dan howell seems to be lacking this. labelled as an emotionless freak, dan is outcasted because his moods are never visible. that is, until an endlessly happy boy named phil wonders why.

[completed] in which ryland starts dreaming of shane, the pretty boy in his sleep. - at sixteen years old, ryland adams is pretty sure he has his life figured out. everything's perfect. it's not a word he likes to use that often, but with a clique of cheerleaders and jocks by his side and the thousands of dollars his business tycoon father provides him with every month, not much can go wrong. his strong religious upbringing has taught him that sex and drinking and being gay is wrong, and this guidance from both his parents is shaping him into the man his father's always wanted him to be. with loren - his family's choice of girlfriend - glued at his hip, ryland can't see anything changing. that is, until he tumbles head first into a land of wrongs: cigarette smoke, alcohol, coffee cups and beautiful boys named shane dawson.

Ryan Works at Build-A-Bear-Workshop, and he isn't really big fan of his job. A customer then walks in one time, and then after that, way too often. It kind of intrigues Ryan a little more and he wonders why this customer is here all the time, not buying much, just there.

Brendon was a boy in love. Ryan was the pitcher for the school baseball team. {Just a ryden baseball au I thought would be cute!} Brendon's POV

*'BEST PHANFICTION' WINNER (FANFICTION AWARDS 2018)* Daniel has anxiety and crumples paper to calm himself down. Phil has ADHD and diminishes hearts to bring himself up.