Brendon Urie's Livejournal Entries ⬇️⬇️⬇️ I wrote NONE of these entries. As far as I know they are all real. & nonfiction.

"i still care about us." ✩ ryden oneshot ✩ vicesandvirtxes©

Ryan finds out he has a deadly STD, he tries to live the rest of his life to the fullest. When he goes out for his daily donut at the campus bakery, he meets young Brendon. A happy go lucky music major. Ryan quickly takes a liking to the boy and quickly befriends him. The more secrets the two share, the more Ryan finds himself falling for him.

"Hello? Ryan?" He sounds nervous, but excited. There's an urgent energy to His voice, like Ryan will run away again at any moment. Who knows? He might. "Are you there?" Ryan doesn't know what to say... It's been years. Is he really even there? Is this really even real? "Yeah," Ryan manages somehow. "I'm here." Initially he pats himself on the back because he's surprised he could even work out an audible sentence, but then he suddenly feels like kicking himself. 'I'm here' is something Ryan would've said to Him as anxiety took over His body back in the days. 'I'm here' was security... and Ryan is the opposite of secure. "Oh... oh my god. It's really you." His voice almost instantly sounds small and hopeful. Of course He remembers Ryan's voice. Christ, he used to sing the boy to sleep on some nights when things got hard... Of course He remembers. "It's so good to talk to you, Ry." And Ryan's heart swells. No, no, no he didn't want this. He changes his mind. Go back. Reset. Taken from Lui et Moi Cover made by my lovely @Akward_Girl

Ryden NC-17

the heart rate of the mouse quotes. i do not own any of these, all credit goes to anna green.