Have you ever fallen for a straight girl? It's not fun. You stare at the back of her head in class, you watch her talk with her friends...and you watch her spend time with her boyfriend. The only thing you can do is watch and make sure she doesn't find out. When Stella; a troubled, closeted lesbian falls for a straight girl named Alayna, the only thing she can do is bear with the pain and try to keep her head up. All she has to do is make it through the drama in high school, trouble at home, and not let Alayna find out about her crush that won't go away.

In High School, Peridot's only concerns were grades and getting out of that Hell Hole ASAP. She had been tormented by bullies all of her life, so hated everyone as a default setting. By her Senior year, however, a newbie freshman named Steven got her to open up a bit and she actually gained a few friends right before graduation. Now she was going to college, and she was ecstatic. She couldn't wait to get started and meet some new people! ....And then her roommate happened.... Just an advanced warning, this fic will have some very strong themes; including scenes of sexuality, self harm, panic attacks, some violence, and some mildly strong language throughout. (Also, the cover art is not mine, it belongs to Merengeee on DeviantArt.)