Dear Diary, I have made the decision to go to an eating disorder clinic. I want to get better. I don't want to be sick in the head anymore. I want to conquer the voices of Ana and Mia. I want to stop listening to their lies. Wish me luck! Elizabeth This is the second book to my series Ana and Mia. If you haven't already. Read the Voices of Ana and Mia first :) Love yall!!!! :)

"I fell into darkness but I didn't mind, I liked it." Amy Adams thought everything was alright, but when she heard her very best friend Rose committed suicide, her world turned upside down. Amy couldn't understand, why? But Amy found Rose's diary at her wake and everything became clear. Rose was anorexic. Rose wrote about her two guardians Ana and Mia, they helped her, or something. Amy didn't understand a thing, but not for long. Because Amy would also meet her fate with the two angels of death. Just like Rose. Amy has a hard time fitting in after her only connection to a social life left her alone. Amy get's lost and tries to save herself. But how can you pull yourself out of a hole where you can't see the edge? Amy does make new friends and she even falls in love but everything is on the verge of falling apart. How does she plan on keeping her 'new habit' a secret? and when will Amy really understand?

I use this as my diary. I write down all my thoughts and I hope it'll help me.

"I smile everyday. I live my life like nothing is wrong with me. No one would ever guess that I'm screaming inside or that I've secretly been hiding this huge part of my life. No one would ever know that I cry myself to sleep at night or that deep down I'm starving for help." Welcome to Anorexia. Your hostess is Ana. She'll take over from here. Suffering alone inside of your mind from a terrifying mental disorder, is something that even those who battle such a thing every day, cannot fully understand. It's like being alone 24/7 yet it's never quiet inside of your head. You can't stop the voices. You can't control your emotions. As it gets worse, you lose control of your body all together. You become prey to your disease and You can't fight back. That is what it's like for someone who has spent years of their life suffering in silence from an eating disorder. Fighting a monster that you have no chance of beating. It's almost impossible to describe the type of torture that consumes your mind. Hell. It's equivalent to pure hell.

Life as a child was amazing. Your weight didn't matter. Your clothes didn't matter. Your parents money didn't matter. All that mattered was who you were going to play with, but that's all gone now. My sister hates me, my mom has no time for me, and my dad, well he left me. My life has been one whirlwind after another. Except I'm content with it, till it all comes crashing down. Every television, billboard, and magazine is covered with models. Models that are supposed to be role models, for us. Perfect face, perfect body, perfect life. I have none of those things. All my life I've never cared that I was over weight, and didn't wear makeup. Who knew a boy could change all of that? That's when I decided to starve myself, force myself to look like the girls in the magazines. Who knew all I was doing was slowly killing myself? Life likes to play games, except my game is called Ana and I don't think I will survive. (unedited) Cover by: MadHatter_25

Dear Ana, you stayed with me for a long time. Mostly to tell me I was doing everything wrong. Consider this my middle finger. We're done. ⸺ This book is a collection of letters written to an eating disorder. They exist to process, to confront, for everyone who had to survive the same. Not everyone did. ⸺ 🛑 TW: This book deals extensively with eating disorders, including starvation and purging behaviors, and explores themes of trauma, self-hatred, emotional abuse, and mental distress. It also includes sexual content related to vulnerability and self-destructive patterns. Reader discretion is advised. Please prioritize your well-being and step away if needed.

『 #8 ɪɴ ᴊᴇғғ ᴛʜᴇ ᴋɪʟʟᴇʀ 』 The blood rushed over my body, heart beating, world spinning. It was a whole new world, I never knew something so bad could feel so good. The blood on my hands, the scream of their voices- I've done it. I've killed my first victims. This was the first murder in 2 years in our small town since Jeffery.. Now I know why he did it. The feeling, eating inside you, craving to get out. I stood there, staring at the bodies. I heard the sirens- growing closer, closer... And that when I saw him. Standing in the back yards corridor. Smiling, eyes not moving from my sight. "Found You." And that's when he grabbed my hand and ran. A new adventure began; [Trigger warnings: Murder; Rape; Prostitution]

Soukromí je jediná věc,na které si lpím snad nejvíce. Ale za to musím v sobě dusit ono velké tajemství...a to...kdo vlastně jsem. Jsem youtuber...jsem GEJMR. Youtuber,kterého nikdo,nikdy neviděl a doufám,že ani neuvidí. Avšak mívám pocit,že je se mnou něco špatně,ale nechápu co. Mám zdravou rodinu,sám jsem zdravý,dostatek přátel a dělám co mě baví. Je úžasné jak dvě slova dokážou změnit celý život.

Co se stane, když se do hraní zažerete tak moc že vás to do ní vtáhne? Jedné dívce se to stane . Hraje hru a najednou se v ní ocitne a vše, co bylo jen na monitoru je rázem realita. Nebude tam však sama, vtáhnutí budou i její oblíbení youtubeři. Bude muset bojovat proti nim nebo se spřátelí a budou bojovat bok po boku?

Jeden dopis...jeden krok k tomu si vzpomenúť kto mi je napsíal. Päť rokov ležali nieke na pošte a teraz tu ležia tu predo mnou. Snažím sa vyriešiť ten prvý....vždy sa mi tam naskytne možnosť sa přiblížiť k vyriešeniu mena odosielateľa, ale je tu jeden malý problém...tie nápovedy sú fakt ťažké, ale musím na ne prísť...