After a lot of rock music, many skating accidents and a considerable amount of arguing, Alex finds out that there are things in the world worth living for. Skateboarding, as it turned out was not the only thing Alex and Jem bonded over. [copyright afterwords two thousand & fifteen] short story #24

ᴏɴ ɴᴏᴠᴇᴍʙᴇʀ 6ᴛʜ, 1985, ᴡɪʟʟ ʙʏᴇʀs ᴄʀᴀsʜᴇᴅ ʜɪs ʙɪᴄʏᴄʟᴇ ᴡʜɪʟᴇ ʀɪᴅɪɴɢ ʜᴏᴍᴇ ғʀᴏᴍ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡʜᴇᴇʟᴇʀ ʜᴏᴜsᴇʜᴏʟᴅ, ᴅᴀᴍᴀɢɪɴɢ ʜɪs ʜᴇᴀᴅ ᴀɴᴅ ᴡᴀᴋɪɴɢ ᴜᴘ 2 ᴅᴀʏs ʟᴀᴛᴇʀ ᴡɪᴛʜ ɴᴏ ʀᴇᴄᴏʟʟᴇᴄᴛɪᴏɴ ᴏғ ᴡʜᴏ ʜᴇ ᴡᴀs. ᴘʟᴀɢᴜᴇᴅ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴛʜᴇ ᴀʙsᴇɴᴄᴇ ᴏғ ʜɪs ᴍᴇᴍᴏʀɪᴇs ᴀɴᴅ ᴀ ᴅᴀʀᴋ ʜᴀɪʀᴇᴅ ʙᴏʏ ᴡʜᴏ ʀᴇғᴜsᴇs ᴛᴏ ᴛᴇʟʟ ᴡɪʟʟ ʜɪs ɴᴀᴍᴇ, ᴀʟʟ ᴡɪʟʟ ʙʏᴇʀs ʜᴀs ᴛᴏ ᴅᴏ ɪs ʀᴇᴍᴇᴍʙᴇʀ. ᴛʜᴀᴛ's ᴛʜᴇ ʜᴀʀᴅ ᴘᴀʀᴛ.

❝ i feel like i'm waiting for something that isn't going to happen . ❞ --- ♡(reddie modern au) --- ongoing, started 6-24-18

"Only fools fall for you."

"So if I'm losing a piece of me, maybe I don't want heaven."

UNDER EDITING Love is so hard when the only love you feel is the kind that you don't want. Of course he loves his mother, doesn't he? She loves him, he knows that. But it's just so hard not to hate a person who makes you hate yourself. Of course he loves his father. But it's just so hard to miss someone you never really knew. It's hard to miss someone whose death is the reason your mother makes you hate yourself. 'You don't want to end up like your father, do you, dear?' 'Of course not. But will I really end up like him? You can't catch cancer, Ma.' 'Of course you can, Eddie. You can catch anything if you arent careful enough. Promise me you'll always be careful.' 'Okay, Ma. I promise.' But Richie Tozier turned his life upside down. Eddie isn't sure he likes it. The freedom, the excitement, the wind in his hair, that's all nice. But the other feeling, the warm one that feels like his heart is going to explode, the one that only happens when he's around. Eddie Kaspbrak is afraid of that feeling, and it is the very feeling he gets when Richie Tozier is standing too close to him. ! WARNING ! This story includes mentions of depression, anxiety, thoughts of self - harm, explicit scenes and homosexual interactions. If you are not comfortable with these, or uncomfortable with subjects that may relate, by clicking on the 'Begin Reading' you are agreeing to the terms that have been set and the author is not responsible for any effects it may have on your mind or body. ! WARNING !

Eddie cares so much about Richie because they're friends, right? Nothing else. ***AN: In this piece, both Eddie and Richie are 13-14. Therefore, any comments, joke or otherwise, referring to either of them in a sexual manner will be deleted immediately. They're weird and they make me uncomfortable. Thanks for understanding.***

"BUT WHAT'S THE GOOD IN GOODBYE ANYWAY?" ××××× In which a heartbroken Richie Tozier receives letters from his missing best friend. ××××× ALOSERSWORLD RICHIE X EDDIE GONE BOY STARTED| 10/24/17 ENDED| 2/5/19

"In which a group of kids meet in a mental hospital, brought together to fight against an angry supernatural force - pennywise the clown." Eddie Kaspbrak is caught in the world that is an adolescent mental health unit in his hometown Derry, Maine. Labelled as insane and schizophrenic, no one sees what he sees, until he meets a new group of friends, the Losers Club, banded together through shared mental struggles. The one thing they wish they didn't share in common, were visions and hallucinations of the same, red balloon possessing clown. Together, they battle to overcome all their personal fears, to destroy the dangerous, murderous terrorising clown, all while creating relationships and handling the day to day struggles of being mentally damaged in a heavily controlled environment. "I'm not insane!" Eddie screeched, grabbing at his mother's dress. He tugged harshly on the cheap dress, begging for his life. "The clown is real! Please! He'll kill me in here!" He kicked at the nurses trying to take him. "It's for the best, baby." His mother attempted to reassure him, taking his hand. He sobbed, screaming at the very top of his lungs. "Don't leave me here!" As much as he hated home, a mental hospital was no better. Suddenly he was jabbed with a needle, a pumping ache racing through his arms. He gasped, watching his mother look at him tearfully. The world began to slow around him, and he began to weaken. He sobbed softly, watching the world close around him, the sedative taking course in his body. He lifted his head to the side, and the last thing he saw was a group of kids watching him pitifully.

❝ how do you manage to always hurt yourself? ❞ where richie constantly gives himself papercuts in class to get the shy boy's attention