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Jellybean//fack fanfic  by ReddieSpaghettio
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On the outside, Finn Wolfhard seems hard on himself and everyone at his school, but only Jack see's the inside, he sees Finn as sweet, just like a jellybean.
Could you ever stop and wonder? (Joshler) by thebrokenpeoplee
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Tyler has depression, but he is going through recovery spectacularly, it's not a straight line but he's pretty much happy. He loves drifting off into his imagination but despises plummeting into negative thoughts. He can't complain. He is so close to recovery. But, sometimes he has to stop and wonder, because, what if he crashes and burns? Josh has depression, but it seems his only worries are when Tyler's face goes blank and he disappears into his own thoughts. He loves Tyler with all his heart and more but despises how Tyler doesn't seem to notice that Josh isn't as "fine" as he said he is. He can't complain. He doesn't want Tyler to worry when the person is so close to recovery. But, sometimes he has to stop and wonder, because, what if putting Tyler before himself kills him? // "Why are you wearing long sleeves all the time? I'm worried." // Warnings - depression, SELF-HARM etc. Recovered!tyler Depressed!josh // Au paragraph/sentence per chapter.
Suicidal tendencies (Joshler) (not edited)  by thebrokenpeoplee
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Josh has attempted suicide multiple times. It never works. He has made a list: Tie a noose - not when your mother is visiting. Swallow pills - 1. maybe something more powerful than paracetamol. 2. Ibuprofen and paracetamol = hospital Main vein in wrist - deeper. Bridge - water apparently saves lives. Building - 1. people are curious and act as saviours. 2. Higher building needed. 3. CPR seems common knowledge. It seems the universe just doesn't want him to die. His roommate and boyfriend (Tyler) don't want him to die either. The problem is it seems the only thing josh has been successful at is hiding his suicidal tendencies from said boyfriend. Long sleeves are easy to wear all the time, also, even though they have been together for many years josh is asexual so there's never seemed to have been a time when Tyler has seen him without a shirt. All of this is of course until, after living together for all of five months, Tyler, being the curious person he is, finds Josh's list crushed on the bedroom floor (how careless). And, oh, the guilt that consumes a man so happy he has been blind to sadness for so long is simply overwhelming. Maybe Josh should've been more careful. Maybe Tyler should've been more observant. // "You are a noose and I need you to unwrap yourself from my neck." // Warnings - suicide, self-harm, kinda mentions physical abuse (not really but I'll include it anyway), (kinda) emotional abuse, (kinda) toxic relationship Suicidal!josh Unhelpful!tyler // Au
Starve:Joshler  by Grayson_eli
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Tyler has always been small for his age, but how small can he get before they notice? ... Trigger Warning: Eating Disorders,Depression,Anxiety,Abuse,OCD ... Chapters will be short about 100-300 words each!
the quiet ⭑ joshler  by inyourdreamz1984
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reader's discretion advised: this is twilight bad. "that's tyler. he doesn't talk much, well-at all, really." (i wrote this when i was like 12 so pls forgive anything that makes u cringe i have to rethink keeping this up a lot) trigger warning - self harm, a bit scary idk some people have commented that it scared them please only read if you are comfortable* also prepare to cringe because i wrote this like 2 years ago thanks ladies and gents and everything in between mute!tyler lowercase intended © inyourdreamz1984
But I Still Love Him|Joshler| by JoshleeeeeerTrash
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Tyler is a depressed kid who only has 2 friends (Brendon and Gerard). Josh is a Soccer Player with a decent amount of friends and a great girlfriend. But Tyler Loves Him. But Josh Begins To question himself when he meets Tyler. Triggers:Depression/Gay/Self Harm/Drugs/Abuse
Tythan (Tyler x Ethan) by iwannays
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They say life is a row of closed doors, you just have to open one. Tyler and Ethan, lover and lover. They opened their door, Together.
Did you miss me?A Jelix story -editing- by Peeps_in_the_house
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Jack has been suffering from depression.He falls in love with his best friend Mark.They eventually hook up but what will happen when Jack's old best buddy who he happened to have a one night stand with comes back? WARNING SELF HARM AND SMUTS Okay I wrote this like two years ago and it's really bad. Read at your own risk.
Greeny - Septicpie/Jelix  by forgotmyumbrella
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For the Jelix/Septicpie shippers. There isn't enough for us. This is trash though. XD ♡
Felix.exe // Jelix AU by potaytofairy
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Downloading Felix.exe... Time Estimated: Now { Sequel is up - Pewdiepie.exe }