That's just a little hope that just never gonna happen you know? The little hope, happiness and love that you see at the end of the tunnel. Once you get there with one step to take you get pushed all the way back to the beginning like you never were at the end in the first place. The never ending torture and pain that comes back like it never went away just got worse and worse until you couldn't take it anymore then you just break and end it all? Well that's how Justin feels