"Fat fat fat," Luke clawed at his body. "All I am, is fat." - Luke Hemmings is ugly. Luke Hemmings is fat. Luke Hemmings likes to puke. Luke Hemmings despised eating. Luke Hemmings is every negative comment made about him. Luke Hemmings is gay. Luke Hemmings is pretending. Luke Hemmings is damaged goods. Ashton Irwin is hot. Ashton Irwin is skinny. Ashton Irwin loves to eat. Ashton Irwin is smart. Ashton Irwin is amazing. Ashton Irwin is everything Luke needs. Ashton Irwin is gay. Ashton Irwin is pretending. Ashton Irwin is noticing. Ashton Irwin is falling in love.

Ashton is okay right now. He's always like this after a bad bout. He starts off saying that the world is his oyster and he loves everyone, but when the energy and fresh success fades, so does he. Luke knows. He knows about all of Ashton's problems. He knows about the time Ashton was bullied nearly to the brink, the family deaths and friend losses, and the ups and downs, the latter of which seem to be more common lately. It's been so easy lately for Ashton to slip after a joke gone wrong, or a jab on Twitter. Ashton always says he's sorry, repeating it again and again if only to convince himself. Luke knows he's sorry, knows that he can't help it. And he'll sit by the bathtub for hours, holding Ashton, to make sure that he knows someone loves him. None of the other boys know. Ashton couldn't bring himself to tell them and face their disapproving stares too, and he wouldn't let Luke tell them, so he's stuck in this half state of secrecy and confession to Luke. Ashton hasn't gone too far yet, not far enough that Luke can't patch him up with gauze, antibiotics, and a long hug. But someday, someday, Luke knows Ashton won't be able to take it anymore, and Ashton will die. And Luke will be all alone.

Who needs friends when you have music? Dear Luke Hemmings is one of the typical outcasts of school. He has a few friends, but none as close as Calum Hood, his very best friend since primary education. The boys want to become a success but how will they be able to do it if Luke is afraid to talk to people? Things might change when Luke and Cal take an advanced music class, in which there are several people from different grades. A great opportunity to show their talent. Whilst Calum makes new friends Luke is sitting down on his desk, drawing little nothings on his notebook every now and then, until someone catches his eye, but still he does nothing, he’s afraid he might mess things up if he tried to talk to him. Yes, him. But the intense staring everyday makes him burn with confusion, should he try? His friend Calum says he should give it a go, but the only time he tried he ended up bumping into some girl and being a stuttering mess. Luckily, this person is a loving self, and is more than happy to make new friends. People encourage him to talk to the lonely guy, just to cheer him up a bit, and that’s exactly what Ashton did, just talk to him. *WRITTEN WITH @DreamingOutLoud16 UP TO CHAPTER 3*

Ashton, the nerd. Also known as f****t, gay, stupid, fatass you name it. He thinks he's worthless. And he knows he is. He's constantly getting bullied. He has scars everywhere. And they keep getting worse. Until one day, a jock named Luke Hemmings saves his life. But will Ashton accept his friendship? WARNING: May include triggering and things which you should be older than 13 to read, such as, self-harm, and a bit of anorexia.

Ashton was getting bullied. Why you ask? Because he was gay. Well gay for one boy in particular. That boy just so happened to be his bully. But when happens when everything changes over a summer vacation. Will things ever work out between them or will they both fall to pieces.

"Together?" I said to Luke."Together!" Our first time going on camera and telling everyone was now. As I clicked the button to turn on the Twitcam,my hand started to shake. "Hey it's okay!" We can do this. Luke turned to me and kissed my cheek. "You're the best." I said to my boyfriend. "I know now get on with it and put on the twitcam!" Updates every Sunday and the occasional Wednesday! Please vote and comment lovelies!

Luke has been in love with Ashton Irwin ever since he first laid eyes on him the day he joined the band. But to Ashton, Luke is his band member and best friend, nothing more. Nobody knows that Luke is gay, not even Calum or Michael, and he plans on keeping it that way.

"What do you think Lou can Bullies and their victims fall in love?" -Ashton. "I don't know, I mean bullies can cause so much pain and hurt can their victims really forgive them?" -Louis "I think as long as they love each other it doesn't matter at the end of the day" -Luke "As long as there is forgiveness then everyone can be happy and loved." -Harry "I mean who are we to question anyway...?" -Louis "The exact thing happened to us." -Ashton "It was a struggle to gain forgiveness and his love." -Luke "But at the end of the day love conquers all." -Harry

There was something about Luke, that made Ashton smile. But lately, Luke hasn't been smiling back. Luke is deeply in love with Ashton, and it's slowly killing him. He's convinced that Ashton will never love him back. He starts to drift away from the other boys, shutting himself out from them while occasionally letting Calum in. Luke is tired of being alone and tired of feeling broken.