Kayleigh's scared. And she hates it. It's weak and pathetic, but she can't stop it. So instead she hides it. But it's always there. It's always itching in the back of her mind. It's only a matter of time before someone finds out. So what happens when Jayden, a guy she never even spoke to before her eighteenth birthday, starts to see past all her defences. What about when there's nowhere left to hide from her darkest fears? What's the plan then? [(Special thanks to x_ADaydreamAway_x for making me the cover)] xxx TW: Suicide mention: chapter 25 a character states her belief that its a childish means of escape and i dont have any one correct her on that in this story (im working on fixing this) **ill put a more in depth explanation next to chapter 25**

A piece of soul in ink, and unto the paper it spilled. A collection of thoughts that rhyme from a wandering mind.

"I desire the things which will destroy me in the end" - sylvia plath. This story ultimately chronicles what it is like to love an abuser. The love is exhilarating and enticing and perfect in one breath, and absolutely devastating in another. This story is fictional, but based on events in my own personal life. I wrote this to cope. Read with caution as it may be triggering.

Fourth Book In My Emo Series (but you can read them in any order and it still makes sense) 'I can't drown my demons they know how to swim.' -Bring Me The Horizon Adrianna, Felix, Devin, Meredith, Ashley and Kai are all best friends. They all have messed up pasts but now they're back on track. When they all move in together they have no idea that one member of their friendship group self harms and wants to die. Not only that, but drama erupts in more ways than one as people cheat, go missing and keep secrets. You can't always outrun your past.

Third Book In My Emo Series (but you can read them in any order and it still makes sense) Kai. Kai was bullied big time. No one liked him. No one cared. He was the emo one, with black hair, bright green eyes and tattoos. He was obsessed with bands, especially Pierce the Veil. He'd never admit it, but Kai had a huge crush on Ashley Giles. Ashley. One of the most popular girls in school, with blonde hair and a lot of piercings. She was beautiful and and a tomboy, scared of nothing. But recently she'd changed. After dating Morgan Stanford, a massive jock, she'd become quiet and reserved. She no longer did what she wanted. Everyone thought Ashley and Morgan had a perfect relationship, but how come Ashley would come in with bruises and cuts? Kai saw right through everything and he was determined to save Ashley. But how was the bullied emo kid going to fight the strongest guy in school? Not all heroes can save people without saving themselves first.

Second Book In My Emo Series (but you can read them in any order and it still makes sense) †Maybe I'm better off dead. If I was, would it finally be enough to shut out all those voices in my head?† - 'Better Off Dead' by Sleeping With Sirens ****SELF HARM WARNING**** "The blade sank into my pale skin, as a trickle of scarlet blood rolled down my arm. My toes curled at the feeling. Other people smoke weed or do heroin, but my drug of choice is pain. Glancing around the dark room, I sighed deeply. All my life, I had been different." Devin is emo. He has been bullied at school for years and when he moves out of his parents house, Devin just wants to die. Meredith is also emo. She is almost a mute and believes she is worthless. Her high school days were spent bunking off, and Meredith intends to quit her job as soon as her possessive older brother lays off about her future. But when these two meet, a whole new part of their lives are opened. Although, nothing is ever achieved without pain, depression and blood, is it? WARNING: This story has swearing and has graphic self-harm scenes. Also, it contains characters from my other story, The Emo Boy I Cried For.

First Book In My Emo Series (but you can read them in any order and it still makes sense) Highest Ranking - #1 out of all of the Wattpad 'emo' books!! Wtf?? Thank you! † It's like you're screaming and no one can hear. † Adrianna Wilkinson was rich, popular and beautiful in her last year as a high school student. She had lots of friends, designer clothes, and to top it off she was extremely clever. But she took everything for granted. Some people had no one, like that new emo boy with the dark brown eyes and pale skin.

"Give me ten days, and I can give you ten reasons not to die." Evan paused. "And if I can't change your mind by then, you can go jump off that cliff."

My friend dared me to write the edgiest story ever.