*'BEST PHANFICTION' WINNER (FANFICTION AWARDS 2018)* Daniel has anxiety and crumples paper to calm himself down. Phil has ADHD and diminishes hearts to bring himself up.

Dan tries to act all cool and confident on camera, but off camera he's a different person even Phil doesn't know. Will Phil be able to save Dan from himself before its too late? Phan angst and fluff (no smut) Warnings: self harm and suicidal thoughts/actions, some semi-graphic descriptions and a teeny bit of swearing

Slicing open your skin every night over something so small is completely and utterly stupid. But for Dan Howell, there isn't any other way to show that he's hurting inside, Sure, there's AmazingPhil whose presence enthrals him yet you can't cure hurt just from a couple of videos that last only a few minutes. But what if these two boys could see that they are almost the same, just on different ends of the scale. One is a YouTuber. One is a fan. Together maybe, just maybe, they can cure themselves. Instead of being broken, maybe they could both be fixed. WARNINGS! Cutting Violence Such Phan. I WROTE THIS A VERY LONG TIME AGO! ITS CRAP AND AWFUL AND OVERUSED AND BE WARNED OF THIS!!!!!!! HONESTLY ITS BAD I CRINGE WHEN I READ IT BUT WHATEVER READ IT AND JUST CRINGE FOREVER

complete phil: you okay dan? dan: ;( will go through severe editing and plot changing in late january--early febuary

"you're the only thing saving me from myself." (this book is a piece of s h i t)

Dan thinks himself to be straight. That is, until Phil enters the picture. Without warning-and most definitely without his permission-Dan begins to develop feelings that are completely new to him. *Currently being edited High School AU // Dan POV // Completed Book cover by the lovely GypsyRover :)