Sometimes when I say "I'm okay", I want someone to look me in the eyes, hug me tight and say, "I know you're not". I have felt like this many times in my life; as a kid, teenager and as an adult. I have seen many things in my life and felt even more things that has been horribly depressing... But I got up. I stood up to walk on for another day. I dealt with my emotional amnesia the only way I knew I could and that was by writing it out into poetry. I wanted to forget my pain and forget what I was going through. I needed that cut of the blade or a pill to drink to take everything away. My poetry became both my pill and my blade... Now I share the most intimate part of myself with the world. The part of me I kept hidden in the closet. The part I never thought I would ever present to the world. Now is the time I have to stop having amnesia about my emotions. It is time to learn, to better myself and to stand up and remember the things that I shut out like a voluntary amnesia all these years. Those who are offended after reading this - f**k you! If you are sad with me and willing to cut your wrist - I know how you feel! If you just enjoy the words - I love you! #679 in Poetry on 17/03/2018 #779 in Poetry on 18/03/2018 #807 in Poetry on 19/03/2018 #474 in Poetry on 22/03/2018

I didn't see him boom out of nowhere, but there he was standing right next to me on the ledge that would lead me to my own doom. I forgot that I wanted to jump as I looked at his long blonde hair that rustled as if a wind was blowing, even thought there was no source that would have been able to blow anything in any direction. His face looked like a sculpture in the perfect ivory, but it was his eyes that drew me the most. Almost clear, so light was the blue that sucked in my soul and radiated a feeling of love in my body of the likes of which I had never experienced in my life. "So, are you planning to jump or are you waiting for a sign from the heavens? Because let me tell you one thing, if you are waiting for a sign from above, you will still be standing on this ledge by the time the sun finally burns out." Before HE could commit suicide, Lucifer walks into his life and tells him a story that will change him forever... This is a story I wrote around 5 years ago, and I thought it would be interesting to share it here on Wattpad. It is of religious nature, and it might offend, although that is not my intention. My intention is just to show that every story has two sides, and sometimes each person has their own truth and perception.

When David Collins replies to a message on the fanfiction site he writes on, he would never have believed that one message could change his life forever... User @alwaysalone16 becomes the face and voice of none other than Declan Acton, a boy desperate to be pushed out of the closet the way David does with the characters created by famous author C.J. Murray. Within weeks, Declan becomes the Muse that has always been just outside David's grasp; Little does he know that losing Declan would help him to finally imagine his own created characters. As David write a book about his love for the online boy, and Declan paints David's face into his life, they fall more and more in love with the memory of each other by the day. What happens when life throws the two together in the same city? Will they like each other as much in real life as they do online? What will happen when they are once again removed from each other with thousands of miles? Will they make it work, or finally decide that their love was only meant to last for the length of one book before it becomes just another story on someone's shelf? C.L. Farinha, author of Flower Crown; and C.A. Kerst, noted for his work Listen Before You Speak come together to co-write a compelling book of reality, where sometimes we can fall in love with the perfect person online. In a day and age of technology we live in, it is a fresh and new outlook on how love has evolved. "One Story Long" is the first co-written work for both authors with the hope of many more to come. Go with them on the journey that shows that true love can begin online, but distance can sometimes be the make or break factor in whether the love survives.

When Brody challenges his stepfather who tries to rape him, his "step-loser" as he calls him has his revenge by throwing acid in Brody's face. Brody is almost certain that this is where his life will end. A broken soul and a face that was once a sight for sore eyes, now looks like molten wax. Off course Brody has a plan for all of that. He will do the things he still wanted to do, and eventually as soon as he is done with his bucket list, commit suicide, releasing the world from the most horrible face it has ever seen. For now, all he has to do is keep on the mask of humour so that nobody will suspect what he is really planning... And off course he needs to keep on the phantom mask in public as not to scare all the children in the streets. But that's okay... Isn't it? It's fun pretending it's Halloween all year long? It is however when Brody meets E.J. next to him in the hospital that Brody needs to make a different decision. E.J. has been raped by his stepfather for many years, but he somehow keeps a positive outlook on life. Maybe inviting E.J. on the bucket-list-road-trip of a lifetime with him will keep Brody from jumping at his last stop. Will Brody be able to figure out the emotions inside him when E.J. is close before he jumps? This is a story of friendship and love, and delving through the deepest sore to find a sparkle of hope that life could potentially go on, no matter how dark things behind the mask may seem. This is the trilling continuation of "Behind Drawn Curtains" where we meet up with Brody, E.J., Chris, and the rest of the gang that stole our hearts in a tale full of suspense. PG - This book may contain strong language and sexual encounters between same sex individuals. Please be advised that although this is not a sequel, it is best to read "Behind Drawn Curtains" first. Repeating that this is not a sequel, but rather a continuation.

Book # 2 in the Silence Series # Sequel to "Listen Before You Speak" - the story of Elijah and Blake Elijah is no ordinary boy. Never has been, and he is probably sure that he never will be the normal boy everybody wants him to be. How can you be ordinary and normal after your first love dies? After your father was the one responsible? How do you cope when your English teacher is the one who gives you a new home? Blend in a crazy friend and the fact that Elijah who learned how to speak one word of a time thanks to Blake has gone completely mute again. Will he ever be resurrected from the pain that is threatening to overwhelm him to the point where he will cut his own wrists? Is there any way someone could save him this time? Is there really that many words that can be spoken in silence? Can you truly be put back together when you are more than broken and half the pieces are lost forever? This story is PG13, since it may have strong language. This story may contain self-harm issues, abuse, and other traumatic scenes. Please be advised that the main character is homosexual, and therefore there will be romantic actions between same sex characters. If that makes you uncomfortable in any way, please refrain from reading.

When Cory's father suddenly dies his entire perfect world is torn apart. Gone is the loving mother, doting sister, lovely house, and the huge allowance. In stead Cory needs to deal with the bank auctioning off the home he gave his first steps in, a illness that befalls his little sister, and the depression that's eating his mother alive. Just as it can't get any worse, Patrick with the golden-brown eyes, the infectious laugh, and the rich life finally shows interest in Cory. The thing that Cory believed would have made his once almost-perfect world completely perfect now becomes his biggest fear as he tries to keep his new life a secret. With juggling his depression, suicidal thoughts, and self-harm; Cory just doesn't know if the boy with the infectious laugh has a place in his life anymore. "Out in the Wind" is not just the story of a teen who is forced to grow up sooner than any kid should. It is also a real story that happens to lots of people around the world on the daily. This is a story full of tears, sadness, hope, loss, faith, and love. Note: This story contains affection between two male characters. If that in any way offends you, please refrain from reading. This story may also have triggers for depression, self-harm, and suicide.

pppfffppfppfpfppfpfppf first Yaoi fic oh yeah I'm thinking about adding a bit of lemon uvu but naaahhhh

Shout-out to QueenPeachz for the idea! Yaoi warning! (Male x Male) If you don't like - don't read! (Fluff)

The Start of a Beautiful Yet Dirty Relationship

Nezumi, a famous King who could win the heart of any girl. His life would look perfect in anyone else's eyes; but not his. On his 18th birthday, he is expected to choose a girl to become his wife for the future. When 17 year old Shion appears in his life, Nezumi finds it extremely hard to keep his secret for much longer. Spending time with his air-head of a friend, he cant keep his emotions inside, but he could never let his parents find out for he feared what might happen to Shion; the one he had fallen deeply for. WARNING: this is Yaoi (bl, boyxboy etc) also there might be swearing and slow updates. I do not own No.6 or any of its characters, i only own the story in this book.