when I cry... I can't help but smile. the pain inside takes me over as soon my eyes turn dull and my body becomes weak. my eyes turn to stone as they don't show what they use to. tears... tears flow down my face as my smile grows wider as I laugh... I turn into a empty whole as I feel there is no meaning for me to live.... friends... friends, the knife under my bed... the tears I hold inside.. iwaizumi.. save me... cause I don't think I will make it much longer.. -oikawa