"I'm so scared...scared of the truth I don't remember for good reasons but..." I admit words laced with pain I don't even understand as I trail off. But what? What am I so terrified of remembering? "Then don't! You don't need to remember anything but who you are now. Don't dwell in the past...just live in the here and now." He pleads and I want to listen...want my memories to stay gone but... I can't. Because...? Because what? "If I don't remember...it'll drive me insane." And that's the raw ugly truth. The truth I know everyone chooses to ignore. But it ends now. I'll remember everything...even if it kills me. --------------------- © shutup345 ™ 2016 ® All Rights Reserved Xoxo shutup345

When fifteen year old Justin Matthews is sent to Chesapeake High, and all year, all boys, high school, to live with three other boys in a small dorm, he thought it was going to be his death. However, once he meets his dorm-mates, he realizes that he may be able to get through the year, with a little friendship, and a dash of sex...wait what?

Everything in Jules Hatcher's life is going well: he has a girlfriend, a job and pretty decent grades. That is until he (literally) stumbles into Hunter Adams, the bad boy and player that everyone knows. Soon Hunter has managed to turn Jules' entire world upside down- and make him discover a side of himself, that Jules never knew of. And it all started with that damn hoodie. Trigger warning: this story includes depictions of homophobia and mentions of suicide.

COMPLETED [boyxboy] Mason Maloney has lived his whole life in the shadow of his twin brother, Nathan, star quarterback of the football team. While Nathan impresses everyone in town with his athleticism, Mason spends his afternoons working at the local bakery. His rather mundane life becomes more interesting when his brother's rival quarterback, Sam Knight, gets a job along side him at the bakery. The rivalry between their two schools should keep them apart, but does it? COVER BY: @Grand_ ~166k words

*** COMPLETED *** Sixteen year old Daniel Layman has been bullied since he came out. His best friend and protector Sean, moved to Los Angeles leaving Daniel to fend for himself in Oklahoma City. Along with trying to survive every minute of hell at school, Daniel also has to walk over five miles everyday through the dangerous streets of Oklahoma City, just to get home - where he has to ignore the aggressive men his mother brings home every night. Seventeen year old Ethan Miller has been a member of one of the most dangerous gangs in Oklahoma City since he ran away from the foster care system as a child. When Daniel stumbles onto a turf war between Ethan's gang and their rivals, Ethan saves him. But the more Ethan gets to know Daniel, the more he realizes just how much saving Daniel needs. Cover art: made by me #1 in #boyxboy - May/2020 #2 in #gay - May/2020

Jason Williams didn't think going out to dinner with his family was going to be any different than usual. Comments about his sexuality, some teasing from his brothers, and lots of paparazzi. You know, nothing strange at all. But a fight with his father made Jason storm out of the restaurant, down an alleyway, and suddenly his life isn't the usual anymore. He woke up in an unfamiliar dark room, and a handsome boy opened his door to explain. The snowy-haired genius was holding him captive until he got what he wanted. Life couldn't be worse. Warning: This book contains mental issues such as depression, schizophrenia, and others. If you're sensitive to that kind of thing, then you should probably think twice before reading this. Of course, if you want to read it and you're sensitive, I'm not stopping you. This book only touches upon the subjects; It doesn't go deep into suicide attempts and voices. Remember despite the hate these mental illnesses receive, I believe you. Mental illnesses are no joke, they're not something I try to use for views. I am not hating on the illnesses. I know it's hard, but they are relevant to the book so I had to include them. If you're feeling depressed, please talk to a counsellor. Or, if you're too scared for that, I'll happily listen and give you advice. Thank you! (I needed to include this because I didn't want people thinking I thought the mental illnesses were stupid. I don't, I promise. I love you, and I need you to keep fighting!)

"They have belligerent sexual tension." "What does that even mean?" --- James and Casper have been fighting for years - they've just never gotten along, ever. And then comes along a game of Gay Chicken and a kiss that changed everything. (BoyxBoy)

Leaving a troubled past behind, Dylan starts his first day at a new high school. He's soon wrapped up in his new life, meeting new friends and especially someone to take his mind off the things that happened. However, the past has a way of catching up, and how does he think he can get someone else out of their misery if he can't even help himself? Dylan knows he should know better than to fall for someone new, but Zach isn't just anyone. He's the guy with a face of stone and eyes as cold as a winter's night - a guy without a heart - or so it would seem... They won't like each other at all, they will hate - hate each other senseless. But perhaps that senselessness is what will get them out of their troubles once and for all.

Bryson Maxwell; just turn seventeen and found out he's pregnant. Four weeks ago; Bryson and his friends went to a party. Bryson got drunk and slept with the father to his baby; just he doesn't remember that person, as he woke up alone in a guest room. Now his parents are sending him to live with his Grandparents in Willow Creek Town; that's 200miles from his friends. Owen Phillps; is twenty-one and is a gay man. He came home from college; Caught his boyfriend and roommate having sex. His younger brother Kurt had thrown a party; he provides the alcohol to the underage seventeen years olds. He saw a cute boy; Bryson Maxwell. He knew that boy was underage, but as Bryson was drunk and wouldn't know who he slept with. Not knowing that He had gotten him pregnant. Dillon&Brain Miller; are nineteen and both are bi. They had lived in Willow Creek Town all their life, but moved next door neighbors with the Maxwell family fourteen years ago. Help out the old couple around their house. They saw a cute boy; Maxwell's Grandson Bryson. They fall in love with him at first sight. Then soon find out that the seventeen-year-old boy is pregnant; they want to become the fathers to Bryson baby.

I rejected him and told him to leave the pack and then I made love to him. He left the next day and we're apart for three years... Only for him to come back and he's not the same broken timid boy then. He's so much braver now. Fiercer, bolder, prettier... And just so happen to be the mother of my child that I didn't knew I have. And let's just say, he decided to play hard to get with me.