Just a collection of my self-hating thoughts for the past couple of years that I feel I need to face again for progress. I doubt anyone will read this though...

"Ethan!" The guy yelled. It was Eugene. Why did it have to be him? Why was he the one who followed me? I spun on my heels "What!?" I snapped. I didn't mean to but I did. Eugene held his hands up as if to surrender. "What happened back there?" His voice was soft, like he expected me to lash out if he spoke too loud. "You know what happened" I seriously needed to get control of my anger "you pressured me into that stupid game. And now everyone in there thinks I was reckless. Now everyone is going to look at me like some freak!" I hissed, raising my voice. Eugene frowned "Is that what this is about? You're worried about what everyone will think? I understand that you're upset-" I cut him off "No you don't! You couldn't possibly understand. Eugene, I only care about what they were saying because it was true! The accident was my fault" I raked my hands through my black hair, messing it up more. Eugene stood there, like a gapping fish and I continued to ramble. "Its my fault the car crashed and now Brian is dead-" *** Broken, numb and damaged. Ethan is a boy who could slip through the cracks of society. A drug addict with a bad past. Even the teachers at school have given up on him. Eugene, a boy who had it all. A girlfriend, a large friend group not to mention a set life with his decently wealthy family. But that didn't necessarily mean he was happy. Boys from different worlds meet by chance. In science. With a science teacher who really likes experimenting with fire. Things might get a bit heated.

Jake Miller and Alex Moody have been in an unspoken rivalry since middle school --popularity and talent driving one away from the other. But being locked up in the school's equipment room with a drunk-as-hell rival can make things a little complicated in their relationship. One struggles to contain his feelings. While the other struggles to accept it. But in the end, this is their struggle to embrace it. ************************************************************************************************ Started : Apr 26th, 2019 Completed :

Watson Young has always been a bright kid, no one could deny that, but even the most intelligent people can make the dumbest mistakes. Keep the dumbest secrets hidden. Watson was rather good at that, considering that no one knows about the stuff he deals with at home. Elijah Andrews, one of the wealthiest kids in the school, but doesn't necessarily describe Elijah, no, that describes his financial state. Elijah's not stupid, he knows his friends are pretty fake, seen the drooling stare with money in their eyes, blinding them from seeing Elijah as something more than walking money. Elijah had a busy schedule, which was probably why he never noticed Watson, the small cello player in the school's orchestra. He never saw the guy who sat in the back of his classes, never speaking a word to everyone. But neither did anyone else, if they had, maybe they would have noticed the bruises covering Watson's arms from a mixture of bullies and his drunken father. What happens when the school's wealthiest attendee notices the quiet cello playing boy with too many unexplainable bruises?

"𝕎𝕖 𝕒𝕣𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕡𝕣𝕠𝕥𝕒𝕘𝕠𝕟𝕚𝕤𝕥𝕤 𝕠𝕗 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕨𝕠𝕣𝕝𝕕" - Haruichi Furudate Emerson Scott and Robyn Hook had been childhood friends, being the literal dictionary definition of friendship. Their friendship was extraordinarily concrete and everyone else knew how close they were. They were so close in fact, that they'd do the usual best friend activities such as hold hands, cuddle, and even kiss each other on the cheek. But like, no homo, right? What happens when the 'b' in bromance starts to slowly fade away, and the fine line between romantic and platonic becomes blurred? •progress• ongoing• •fewer, but lengthy chapters•slower updates•

"Are you going to jump off the bridge now or not?" "Are you going to stop me if I said yes?" "Of course not," "Then, what would you do?" "Probably count you off," "Wow," "Do you want me to count?" "No," "Why not?" "Because I'm not going to jump off the flippin' bridge!" *** Joshua Goldmann was seemingly the perfect boy of the perfect small town, Willowcreeks. Even so, he found himself on the edge of an abandoned bridge on one fateful night. It was supposed to be the end, not the beginning

"Noah, I won't do it unless you ask me to," he whispered, his voice seductively low. "What?" I asked almost breathless. "Kiss you," he murmured. "And God, there are no words for how badly I want to." **** Noah was your all American boy. Captain of his soccer team, extremely good-looking, having other boys want to be him and girls want to be with him, but there's one problem. He doesn't chase after the captain of the cheerleading squad or the girls who spread their legs open for whoever asks. In fact, he doesn't go for any girl. Instead, he hates himself when his eyes linger on a guy that his brain and heart say is cute. He's gay, and he's having a hard time accepting himself for it. It doesn't help when he wakes up almost naked in another guy's house, let alone in another guy's bed. And to make matters worse, he can't help but fall for the outspoken and extremely attractive Madison who he'd drunkenly went home with and tried to screw. Finally, to add the cherry on top of the crap-tastic cake, Noah is forced to work with Madison for at least six months, or he'll lose his beloved soccer. Nothing could go wrong, right? Throw in a bit of awkwardness mixed with a few close calls and you've got a recipe for disaster....and a tiny tear in Noah's heavily protected heart. © 2018 *endless thanks and love to @half_a_hetero for helping me with the Italian in this book. I'm not a native Italian speaker, so having their help was invaluable. Follow them and show them some love!!* Amazing cover by @Grand_ Highest Rank: #4 in lgbt

An angel and demon, inevitably bound together by unknown depths of the universe and connected through an even greater force known as love. Xavion sees no joy in this supposedly fair world rebuilt by Yahweh and his angels. His neglectful upbringing and specist society caused an endless cycle of self-pity and loathing for others. Malach, the soon to be ruler of Heaven, is a particularly bothersome nuisance who seems to be hell-bent on ruining Xavion's life every chance he gets. Can two creatures destined by birth to despise each other learn to look beneath their initial layers of superficiality? Content/trigger warning: This story contains strong language, violence, atypical religious themes and sexual activity.

*COMPLETED* (Y.O.L.O stands for: YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE) *** Carter Jones, the school nerd, and Killian Henderson, the reputated troublemaker, somehow end up getting detention together. "How about we make a bet?" Offered Killian, his pistachio-green eyes drilling into mine as a playful smile lingered on his lips. "A bet?" I gulped, intimidated by how close he was sitting next to me. He nodded and raised four fingers, the ones with the letters "Y.O.L.O" tattooed on them, wriggling them in front of me with his ever-so-confident grin. "Four dares, Jones, just you and me." And that's how it all started. *** Rankings: #fiction #featured #queer #gay #depression #bl #youngadult #featured #comedy #bisexual #manxman #teen fiction #boyxboy #bxb #LGBT #romance Cover designed by Holly Thurston

Sebastian Canales the school's bad boy. He always gets what he wants. But when Sebastian's mom get caught with drugs, he has to move to Texas to live with his dad. At his new school, he meets Ella and that changes everything. Ella Guy is a good girl, she always does what's right. When she sees Sebastian she knows he's different and she wants to help him. As Sebastian's pain becomes too much to handle, he knows he needs to talk to someone about his problems-so in the dark shadows of a party, he opens up to the one girl who he can. Flood of emotions starts to grow and a forming a connection so strong that he couldn't ever let her go... ----------------------------------------------------- Teen Romance ~ #9 Badboygoodgirl ~ #1