Water...it surrounds me. All around it gives my body a protective feeling, as if a shield was cast over my body. The water moves softly around my outstretched fingers cooly while my hands caress the bottom surface. My hair, moving within the water, my eyes peacefully shut. The water is unnaturally still, dull and warmer than my hand. The very opposite of an everyday thing. The surface lacks the usual tension. Everything is different about today. I struggle to breathe, but this is why I'm here, isn't it? The struggle gives me a relief, a release nothing else can give me. The aching feeling I've so longed for. I sink lower into the cool water that surrounds me. I rest my head on the bottom surface and continue my waiting...today will be different, I think. *thump*