- because this moment simply is -

blackmail; the act of using information, to make the victim do what you want or else you reveal this information that would affect them

"I'll never meet him, I will never be able to touch him, I will never be able to breath the same air as him, and the worst part is that he doesn't even know I exist. I'm just a fan" highest ranking: #1 in fanfiction

remember that I tried to build ya, now I ain't worried 'bout shit