i was sinking, and i couldn't swim. {phan au} highest ranking - #10 in danandphil

I breathed out, letting the air fan over his earlobe. Then I seductively whispered, "Don't be a hypocrite. You already have enough bad qualities. Prick." {or the one where Dan's a billionaire and Phil's struggling to get by} STARTED - 10/06/16 COMPLETED - 11/12/16

A boy raised around religion and the discounts for sin, Phil Lester is definitely not one to go around looking for trouble. With his father being the vicar of their local church, Phil has a lot to live up to and has to keep his reputation high if he's to be accepted. He doesn't do parties or drinking; the thought of sex alone is enough to terrify him. So it's no wonder that when Dan Howell, a boy who embraces the life of parties and rebellious acts, shows up to join the church program, Phil starts having trouble keeping himself sane as he tries to teach Dan the path to God. But, religion isn't the thing on Dans mind and he seems to find himself a new toy to play with. [warning: this does contain violence and mature content (as shown) and there's a lot on the topic of homosexuality and negative views towards it from characters in the story. Please read on with care <3]

Sixty-two. That's the number of days the summer-long dedicated Camp Sixty-Two promises they can give any teenager the best time of their life. Sixty-two. That's also, coincidentally, the number of days it takes for Dan Howell to fall in love with Phil Lester while he's there. Warning: contains topics about attempted suicide and death. read with caution.

SEQUEL TO ALIVE Phil's life is in shambles. A third year university student, he lives a less-than-extraordinary life: ignoring calls from his ex-best-friend, working in a local shop, and sleeping around to forget the one thing always on his mind: Dan Howell. TW: language, sexual content, drug mentions ENTIRELY WRITTEN FROM PHIL'S POV

PREQUEL TO "ALIVE" (While Alive is a phanfiction, this story features no Phan (no Dan at all actually) and mostly original characters. While many of them are named after real people, none of the characters in this story are based on real personalities or circumstances at all. This is an entirely original, fictional work. [You don't have to ship Phan or be in any fandoms to enjoy this story. You can read it before, during, or after reading Alive and it won't really make a difference. You can read this and not Alive or Alive and not this. it doesn't really matter. However, if you do read this and Alive this will provide a lot of context for things mentioned in that fic.] Okay that was a lot of information lets get to the description.) DESCRIPTION: Diana, Jamie, Sophie, PJ, Chris, and Phil are six best friends determined to make the best short film any thirteen-and-fourteen-year-olds have ever made. But things get complicated when puberty and hormones start to take over their lives, bringing romance, peer pressure, and that oh-so-important desire to fit in right along with them. TW: mentions of self-harm and depression, partes, social anxiety, sadness THERE'S MOSTLY HAPPY STUFF THOUGH LOTS OF HAPPY STUFF DONT LET THE TW SCARE YOU AWAY <3

Dan Howell is invisible. That's all he knows how to be. Terrified of standing out, he is happy going unnoticed by his peers, finding company in only the old rock and roll songs on his iPod. But Dan's life is turned upside-down when a boy in his drama class takes him under his wing, introducing him to a world of excitement he never could have imagined. Through the good and the bad, Dan's new life thrills him and leaves him wondering ...what does it mean to truly be alive? pairs: Phan and KickTheStickz tw: language, sexual content, abuse, depression, death, suicide, medication, drugs, parents, alcohol ENTIRELY WRITTEN FROM DAN'S POV Note: This fic features no main character death, only mentions of death.

Dan is different. He's learned to accept that. Well, as best he can anyway, considering he's never really had much of a choice. It's been this way for as long as he can remember, the constant runaround process of trying to feel normal. His life is built around it, trying to trick both himself and everyone he interacts with into seeing him as your average person. The isolation as he desperately tries to keep others from finding out, the bitterness that wells up inside of him each and every time he's reminded that he'll never be like everyone else, the fear that nothing will ever change. He's fated to be this way forever; a misfit from society. Isolation can only go so far though, so when he's struggling to make ends meet and he's faced with the option of looking into a serious job or taking on a roommate, he opts for what seems like the easier option at the time. It doesn't seem so easy ten failed roommates into the process, or when he sits down at a table to meet with prospect number eleven and ends up with a coffee spilled all over his lap. Potential roommate number eleven, Phil, turns out to be an insufferable optimistic ball of sunshine that Dan wants nothing to do with. His options are running out though, as are the savings he's been using to pay his rent, so he finds himself begrudgingly agreeing to let the other man move in. Neither of them have any way of knowing just what they've gotten themselves into as they shake on the matter, but time will tell.