Luke is in love with Ashton. It slowly consumes his life until all he can think of is the little drummer boy. Hes distant and he messes up his lines, all the while trying to seem normal and keep his friendship with Ashton going strong. What happens when one night he just cant take it anymore?

Ashton is okay right now. He's always like this after a bad bout. He starts off saying that the world is his oyster and he loves everyone, but when the energy and fresh success fades, so does he. Luke knows. He knows about all of Ashton's problems. He knows about the time Ashton was bullied nearly to the brink, the family deaths and friend losses, and the ups and downs, the latter of which seem to be more common lately. It's been so easy lately for Ashton to slip after a joke gone wrong, or a jab on Twitter. Ashton always says he's sorry, repeating it again and again if only to convince himself. Luke knows he's sorry, knows that he can't help it. And he'll sit by the bathtub for hours, holding Ashton, to make sure that he knows someone loves him. None of the other boys know. Ashton couldn't bring himself to tell them and face their disapproving stares too, and he wouldn't let Luke tell them, so he's stuck in this half state of secrecy and confession to Luke. Ashton hasn't gone too far yet, not far enough that Luke can't patch him up with gauze, antibiotics, and a long hug. But someday, someday, Luke knows Ashton won't be able to take it anymore, and Ashton will die. And Luke will be all alone.

"i miss this" "miss what?" "us" "i miss us too."

Luke has been in love with Ashton Irwin ever since he first laid eyes on him the day he joined the band. But to Ashton, Luke is his band member and best friend, nothing more. Nobody knows that Luke is gay, not even Calum or Michael, and he plans on keeping it that way.

Ashton and Luke are polar opposites. Ashton's gay and Luke is a homophobe. They're put together for a project and they go to Lukes house. Luke learns more about Ashton. Will he change his mind about Ashton and fall for him?

Ashton. A loser with dark glasses and no smile. Except when he's around a certain blonde.

What happens when one boy shatters everything you thought you knew about yourself? "I don't like boys. But I like you. Does that make sense?" "No." "Good."