Dear Dan, I thought I should start writing letters to you. I know it's cheesy, but I've always been accused of being a hopeless romantic. I guess people are right - love drives you crazy. - Phil © 2015 -oceanrising

"Mommy,what is gay? "It's when a man likes another man in the way mommies and daddies do.But it's a bad thing,it's a mental illness" And that was the moment when i realized i was mentally ill

Dan Howell is depressed. Phil Lester is not. Dan Howell doesn't want anyone to know. Phil Lester just wants to help. Dan Howell thinks he's alone. Phil Lester wants to be there. Dan Howell pretends he's okay. Phil Lester knows he isn't. ///// *trigger warning* and very short chapters [completed: May 9, 2016]

"hey, asl?" [highest rank: #26]

Phil Lester is sweet and cute; known for his kindness and enthusiasm. Dan Howell is a tough, cold outsider; known as the school's stereotypical 'bad boy'. But if he's so bad, then why on earth did he rescue Phil Lester and give him a smile which would melt anyone's heart?

Dan and Phil are both secretely in love with eachother, but both are too scared tell one another. So, when at a party they are both dared to tell the truth about eachother, will they finally open up? Or just shy away like how it has always been? What will happen then?

Phil gets bullied. Oneday, after his unusually rough beating, he meets Dan. They soon develop a friendship, stronger than anything, which soon turns to love. But when Phil is left to decide on who he truly loves, will he go with Dan, or someone from the past?

[completed] philly: who's this? danhowell: your future husband ; copyright © 2016 //highest ranking: #4

"hey i'm phil and whoever didn't show up, is a dick," ; copyright © 2016

|| Philophobia. Its name comes from two Greek roots, "philo" meaning love and "phobia" meaning fear of. The fear of love. || "I think i was 9 or 10. And i would watch from the stairs and-and the concept of getting close to anyone...it petrifies me." "Why?" "Because I never want to be vulnerable." His voice became colder. "I never want to be taken advantage of." "Who says everyone will?" The man retaliated. "I like my own tent. I don't want people to come inside and mess everything up." "But what if someone climbed into your tent and cleaned it up for you?" He asked again." xx