"If there was ever anyone to show me the realness in 'reality', it was Yuu... Tiny, little, innocent Yuu - the boy who loved comic books and fascinated in fictional violence, never truly knowing what the truth was like until he met me. I wish he never had to meet me, and see what I do... But he did. It were as if life handed him to me because it knew he was bound to die. That's why I felt like protecting his innocence from taint was my responsibility, no matter the obstacles. I knew I had limited reasons to live and a dead end ahead of me. But, I have a child to protect and an oath to keep myself alive for him. And if I fail, I'd ought to rot in my own hell." The playlist: http://8tracks.com/armincrackers/memento-mori

And there we were, the two of us, standing at the entrance of his bedroom. "This is where you and I will get to know a lot about each other... And where I will thank you every single night for what you have done for me." "...Every night?" Mika was called a doll, but he wasn't to me... He just needed to feel human... Because all he could think of was repaying me with his body. He'd get completely naked for me and just simply let me touch him like it was nothing. I could never do that. Cameras, clothes, the way he presented himself - he was always under control... Nothing seemed to belong to him. Not even his body. How could a boy like me be the only one to give everything back to him? **Occasional heavy vice, possible triggers containing: rape, abuse, illness** Excerpt Playlist: http://8tracks.com/armincrackers/doll-excerpts

"i smoke and see stars explode."