Losing Him // phan

{I lost him a while back, but I didn't realise until it was too late. Until he was gone for good.} TW for depression, suicide, and lots of existentialism.

Special Boy // phan

In a world where everyone has a special ability, a "power", young Dan Howell is alone in having nothing to show for it. He now constantly, obsessively searches for something, anything, that could mean he was different, day after day. But maybe all it takes is a certain Super showing an interest in him to make him trul...

In Your Dreams // phan

Dan Howell never wanted dreams. Because dreams meant he met his soulmate, and meeting his soulmate meant dooming them to a terrible life of memories about his anxiety-ridden past. But when he literally bumps into the boy he was supposed to be perfect for, he may realise he's willing to put his fears behind him and let...

Basorexia || Phan

Basorexia: a strong craving or hunger for kissing WARNING: MILD LANGUAGE, SELF HARM, SUICIDE, ABUSE, AND DEPRESSION. YOU'VE BEEN ADVISED. Dan who is selectively mute, gets bullied at his school, and Phil tries to cheer him up. "Dan isn't the ordinary teenager. He doesn't enjoy parties, drinking, or big crowds. He's di...

Just "Friends"

Dan has been depressed for years now that no one knows about. Kids at school bully him and hurt him. He was going to end it all until one day before school he went to a coffee shop he met a young man. The boys become friends, but Dan starts to feel different than "just friends" (WARNING: DEPRESSION, CUTTING, AND BULLY...

Relapse (Phan)

SEQUEL TO ALIVE Phil's life is in shambles. A third year university student, he lives a less-than-extraordinary life: ignoring calls from his ex-best-friend, working in a local shop, and sleeping around to forget the one thing always on his mind: Dan Howell. TW: language, sexual content, drug mentions ENTIRELY WRITTE...

Alive (Phan)

Dan Howell is invisible. That's all he knows how to be. Terrified of standing out, he is happy going unnoticed by his peers, finding company in only the old rock and roll songs on his iPod. But Dan's life is turned upside-down when a boy in his drama class takes him under his wing, introducing him to a world of excite...

Moving ~ PHAN

When Dan start school in a new place, he and Phil become friends fast. But what happens when things become to much? What happens when the only relief seems to be in harming? What happens when they start catching feelings for one another? But what happens when what Dan's been forced to do his whole life, emerges again...

Misplaced -Phan

Phil wakes up in an alternate universe. And then Phil... wakes up in an alternate universe. Both Phil's try to navigate back to their own life while simultaneously trying to deal with each others'. (AKA YouTuber!Phil tries to deal with the fact that he's in a band and he and Dan are enemies, and Band!Phil tries to und...

Adopted by Dan and Phil

An American girl named Liz was sent from her old orphanage to an orphanage in London where she got adopted by her 2 youtube heros. Warnings: Attempted suicide, cutting, blood and gore, homophobes, bullying, depression.

Depressed // Phan Texting

Phil is depressed. Dan helps with depression The only way Dan can help? Is if you send one text. -- Date created - 03/04/16 M D Y Date finished - ??/??/?? M D Y Lower case intended

The Blind Boy - Phan

Dan Howell liked to think of his entire life as a series of tragic accidents. Because really, how many people can say that they managed to become blind and obtain a supposedly Cute Boy's hate all in the span of one year? And Phil Lester has not had the best school life, so in order to avoid bullying or a bad reputatio...

A Wizard's Misgivings

Dan Howell's entire family has been in Slytherin, and there's no doubt he'd supposed to end up there too. Phil Lester does't exactly know what to do when he finds himself liking boys, so he's usually just horrendously mean to them. Oh, and they happen to get cursed and can't touch! (An enemies to lovers fic!) creds to...