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Apa aku salah menyukai sahabat sendiri? Apa aku salah punya perasaan lebih? Aku juga nggak tau kenapa aku bisa punya rasa aneh kayak gini. Mungkin, aku terlalu berharap lebih. Padahal dia tidak pernah menganggapku lebih. Maafkan aku, Maafkan aku yang membuat semuanya terasa sulit. Aku menyayangimu...

High school in the early 90s: it was before cell phones and social media, but the problems were the same. How do you get the guy you're interested in to notice you? What happens if you fall in love with your best friend? Why does physics class keep factoring into your love life? This novella is loosely based on my own high school experiences... but sort of an alternate version of them. You can only make one set of choices in life, so it's fun to explore what could have been - but wasn't - in fiction. Also, set in 1991-92, this is kind of a period piece now! In some ways it's a love letter to the teen books I read back in the 80s and 90s, in particular those by Ellen Conford and Paula Danzinger. I hope you enjoy it. This story was featured on Wattpad in 2016.

[Now on WEBTOON!] [SLOWLY EDITING] A social klutz and certified bookworm, Autumn Lyne is content with having just books as companions--that is, until her extrovert of a sister drags her out to meet her band. But nobody has expected that this would mark the plot twist her heart has never signed up for. Her first love. *** Fifteen-year-old Autumn Lyne has terrible social skills, and when her older sister Clover has had enough of her being alone all the time, she's forced to interact with people outside of her tiny world. Meeting and befriending her sister's bandmates is only the beginning. Her growing bond with the charming Michael Summer seems unstoppable. But what if there is more to him than meets the eye? How can a girl who has barely opened up her heart handle her first love--and first heartbreak? Illustration by raindrops_