"I don't understand why you smoke, you probably are just like most, you do it to have fun," Sebastian spoke shaking his head slightly as if to be disappointed. I let out a small laugh and he looks at me in complete confusion. "You honestly think I smoke because it's fun? I'm not like most people, I smoke because I want to die," I say now taking my turn to shake my head. He gives me this look of disbelief. "Aren't you happy?"