"I brush my bushy afro hair into a messy bun and wipe all the dry tears on my face away. I know they say first love hurts but this has broken me and I don’t feel the same anymore. Can my life get any worse?" My names Bianca I am 16 and ever since I was little I’ve had dreams of telling the world about my weird, funny but good life. I’m the eldest of four. Two little sisters and one brother, people think my life is so great but I can tell you now that it has its down fall. In my life there’s always going to be four boys you will here me always talk about through out. Matt, Wayne, Daniel and Quinton, you will see how each of them slowly become a huge part of my life with out me even noticing it. Even through all of that I have no regrets because boys, relationships, friendships, and decisions I have had to make in order for me to grow up has made me become who I am today and you can experience it with me through my story. Love, Lust, Pain and Reality. *This story is based on some true events.