anxiety. infatuation. depression. sex. disappointment. love. dejection. promise. i dont want to be categorized. paradoxical. it's a shame to attempt to understand how this works.

you were six and you're never good enough. you do this wrong, you did that right -but not quite. you were six. and you're never good enough. you're thirteen and ain't smart enough. you can't pronounce faux pas properly. you cannot derive formulas and form coherent sentences. you're thirteen. and ain't smart enough. you turned eighteen and you aren't pretty enough. not well-built enough. and all your friends are getting admirers and all you got are three am thoughts screaming you'll never be pretty enough. you are twenty one and you aren't successful enough. some friends are getting married, having kids. some are buying houses and traveling the world. and you just sat there. never good enough. never smart enough. never pretty enough. you sat there, just enough. but never really. 00:00