"The world was a different place, now that he was dead. The love of my life, gone forever. In my dreams, I would see him on the verge of those chalky white cliffs, and he would look at me, before stepping over the edge. He killed himself, and left me with nothing. So that was what I became. Nothing." (2nd book in the FM Trilogy)

Andrew, a twenty-six-year-old literature graduate, has been through more drama than many his age. From suffering obesity to arthritis, and then anorexia after drastic attempts to lose body fat, Andrew grows more conscious of his body. He shields himself from the rest of the world in a reserved cabin tucked away in a small town where he dwells in solitude and self-pity. But things can't stay the same forever and Andrew's carefully planned out walls fall around him with the arrival of his uncle's fiancee's son, Ethan. Ethan will more than disrupt Andrew's 'perfect' life. He'll also teach him the sole act of acceptance.

*Spinoff/Sequel of Lab Partners (Recommended you read Lab Partners first but not required.)* "You know, you shouldn't smoke those things," I spoke softly, referring to the cigarette perched between his teeth. The pale light of the moon made his skin glow like an ethereal light, while his black hair shone like pure obsidian. "And why not?" he asked tiredly, letting the poisonous smoke escape his lips as he looked up at the stars. "They'll kill you," I said honestly, finally looking away from him to peer up at the brilliant night sky. He took the opportunity to turn his stunningly blue gaze back to me. He studied me lazily for a few minutes before asking, "And what if I want to die?" I looked down, straight into his eyes, and asked, "What if I don't want you to?" *This is a bxb book. If you don't like it, don't read it. There is also a trigger warning.* *Cover by @Grand_* *Started 02/14/18* *Finished 04/21/20* *Number of reads on day marked complete: 566k*

COMPLETED [boyxboy] Carson Hughes is a bright light. Vinny Taylor is an enigma. ** After spending his summer away as a camp counselor, Carson Hughes comes back to his home town for his senior year. Things seem to be just as he left them until he finds out his best friend's brother came out of the closet and cut everybody out of his life. Kind and caring Carson can't help but want to understand this new Vinny. Vinny Taylor is falling, constantly going down and feeling like there's no end. His summer leaves him changed forever. After coming out and alienating himself, he spends most days locked away in his room until Carson comes back to town. Vinny's a mystery yet to be figured out. And Carson is up to the task. WARNING: Some of the content in this book may be triggering for some readers. Chapters with triggering content will have trigger warnings at the top with what the triggering content is. There will not be any graphic or detailed scenes of traumatic or triggering experiences. ~180k words

"I just wanna feel something"

Levi Jackson has been in love with Gage Zachary since freshman year, and hasn't failed to tell him everyday he can. Gage rejects him time after time, but is secretly dying to make Levi his and his alone. When something tragic occurs, Levi isn't the same person. For the first time, Gage pursues Levi in an attempt to get to find out what happened to the boy he loves. Will Gage end up confessing to Levi in order to help fix him, or will Levi suffer in silence forever? (Points of view will alternate throughout the story)

14 year old Christopher Carrera moved to a new town with his family to live with his grandfather after the death of his grandmother. He has to start his freshman year at his new school. On his first day, he made new friends and enemies, and meets Brian Walker. Brian Walker is a 16 year old junior who is still suffering from something that happened the year before. He shut his feelings from everyone around him and refused to talk to anybody about it. But it wasn't until the two boys met they felt attracted to one another. Will Brian finally get over of what happened to be with his highschool sweetheart? Or will the past keep him from doing it? Best Rankings #3 bxblove #5 romance #1 lgbtfiction #1 highschoolsweethearts #2 gay #1 minnesota #1 highschoolromance #1 boyxboy

Adam Webb spent most of his teenage years in love with his best friend, Gabriel Connor, only to be thrown out of their shared apartment when he finally found the courage to reveal his feelings. Seven months later Adam's effort to save their lost friendship finds him more than he ever asked for. After all, being thrown out has to be better than thrown into a wall. However, Adam isn't ready to give up. Trapped and isolated in a dangerous relationship, he falls deeper and deeper into Gabriel's world. Despite Adam's attempts to push them away, his friends are determined to help, but the man who fights hardest is Cameron McCain, Adam's photography teacher--a man who treasures what Gabriel does not. They say love should conquer all. But when passion breeds fear and love turns toxic, will Adam make the right choice? Reader Advisory: This novel contains scenes of domestic violence and dubious consent

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"What is love in this temporal life, if not just a distraction from the pain that doesn't seem to end." After losing his best friend to an unexplained suicide, Mateu finds himself left to pick up the pieces with his best friend's younger brother, Ferran. Demure, distant and with a seemingly undying love for the memory of his brother, Ferran fascinates the abrasive Mateu who is relentless in his own search for answers. But uncovering the truth requires the uncomfortable task of facing it for what it is. Only a thin line separates devotion from obsession, dedication from delusion, and passion from mania. Mateu has to choose between coming to terms with the past or be swallowed by it whole. *** Editor's Choice August 2022 @wattpad