"manihlapinatapai" (n). a look shared by two people, each wishing that the other one would initiate something they both desire but which neither wants to begin ------------------------ all you have ever known was pain; the pain of losing everything and everyone. so you decided to shut it off and shut everybody out, but little did you know you'd find yourself struggling to regain that power when you come across the most feared man in the galaxy. power runs through him, he feeds off it. but so do you. •suggested 17+ •mature content •trigger warning

Set before Episode VII, Astrid is taken from her home planet to serve as one of the Breeders on Starkiller Base, tasked with giving birth to the next generation of First Order leaders and warriors. But despite no how much she tries to convince herself that a position as a Breeder is an honor, she longs for the husband and children she left behind. Not to mention her fear of the wrathful and ominous man she serves.

The King and Queen of Calidum have married you off to the Supreme Leader of the First Order to protect their people. Although fearful, you use what little hope you have to try your best to survive through the newfound predicament you're in... only to find out the Force has more in store for you and Kylo Ren. ORIGINAL STORY: COMPLETED (2019) PREQUEL STORY: COMPLETED (2020) SEQUEL STORY: ONGOING (2021) .・゜゜・　FYI　・゜゜・． ○ THIS IS A READER INSERT ○ NSFW (18+) + ANGST ○ ALTERNATE UNIVERSE .・゜゜・　RANKS　・゜゜・． ○ #1 in the KyloRen tag (6/16/19) ○ #1 in the Kylo tag (6/16/19) ○ #5 in the StarWars tag (2/7/20) ○ #1 in the SW tag (7/12/20) ○ #1 in the BenSolo tag (9/12/20) ○ #1 in the KyloxReader tag (1/5/21) ○ #4 in the AlternateUniverse tag (1/5/21) ○ #1 in the Kylo tag (2/20/21) ○ #3 in the KyloRen tag (3/24/21)