BOOK ONE Coming out was supposed to set Julian free. Instead, it left him with a broken arm, a mother who won't stop preaching, and a silence that grows heavier every day. High school feels like a cage, and Julian is certain he doesn't belong anywhere-until Paul crashes into his world. With his inked skin, effortless charm, and a following that makes him untouchable, Paul should be the last person Julian lets close. But in Paul's arms, Julian feels something he's never known before: safe. As their connection deepens, so does the danger. Loving Paul means risking exposure, rejection, and heartbreak all over again. Worse, it means facing the cruelest voice of all-the one inside Julian's own head. Tender, raw, and unflinching, Open is a story about first love, first heartbreak, and finding the courage to believe you're worthy of both. ::: I could feel it when his body finally went slack, when he'd fallen asleep and soft snores emitted. And I thought I was getting better at this breaking down thing... I honestly did but when I was alone, I seemed to fall apart. Endless serenades of how worthless I'd been and how destructive I was; I was a disappointment to literally everyone and I hated it. My breathing became shallow as I cried for the second time that day, finally feeling content being immersed in guilt. A shudder wracked through my body, tears escaping and Paul pulled me closer as he woke silently. Mumbling soft nothings against my skin and kissing it to slow my breathing, he tried to lull me to sleep, "It's okay, you're okay." Refusing to speak -my voice failing me- his arm came up to wrap around my shoulder and I held him there, placing a small kiss to his tattooed skin in a broken sign of gratitude, I must've run out of tears. And I felt at ease.

After the sudden death of his best friend, Cedar Lockwood's life came to a standstill, filled with nothing but illusions born from grief and sighs carrying the hint of unending exhaustion. That is, until one day, he finds a random stranger he met in the graveyard sitting in his bedroom, claiming to be the one assigned to fulfill the final wish of the only person Cedar ever loved. "Our love, holding the innocence of honey droplets amidst the petals of white roses, cried tears of tormenting grief that day. But it also left me with one final wish that will bind us for the last time ever." A story of agonizing loss, shattering realities, newborn friendships and thrilling experiences. Will Cedar be able to break free from his cage and embrace what he wants? Will the wish become not only a gift, but also a curse for him? ----------------- Cover illustration by Tom Haugomat More info on Tom Haugomat in author's notes. ----------------- Started : 14 March, 2020 Ended : 07 July, 2020 ----------------- Achievements :) - Wattpad Editor's Choice (Jan, 2021) - 1st place in teenfiction; Bookaholics Awards - 1st place in lgbtq; The Creators Choice Awards - Best Opening, The Creator's Choice Awards - 2nd place in teenfiction, The Millenial Awards ----------------- #tmaawards2020

Addison Bruno-Williams was definitely not homophobic. How can he be when he had two dads that he loves more than anything? But still the dreaded g-word makes him feel what he hates the most: a loss of control. And he controls every aspect of his life from his grades to his teammates under the Friday night lights. Besides, he's straight and has an amazing girlfriend that he's very much in love with to prove it. But everything changes when the kind, funny new boy who says his name just right crashes into his life. Will he lose control, or will he keep his head and heart straight? Spin off to "Tear In My Heart" but can be read as a stand alone. NOTE: the main story is complete but I'm still uploading bonus chapters ©2019 Beautiful cover by: NiaGraphics! Thank you so much, I love it.

"Noah, I won't do it unless you ask me to," he whispered, his voice seductively low. "What?" I asked almost breathless. "Kiss you," he murmured. "And God, there are no words for how badly I want to." **** Noah was your all American boy. Captain of his soccer team, extremely good-looking, having other boys want to be him and girls want to be with him, but there's one problem. He doesn't chase after the captain of the cheerleading squad or the girls who spread their legs open for whoever asks. In fact, he doesn't go for any girl. Instead, he hates himself when his eyes linger on a guy that his brain and heart say is cute. He's gay, and he's having a hard time accepting himself for it. It doesn't help when he wakes up almost naked in another guy's house, let alone in another guy's bed. And to make matters worse, he can't help but fall for the outspoken and extremely attractive Madison who he'd drunkenly went home with and tried to screw. Finally, to add the cherry on top of the crap-tastic cake, Noah is forced to work with Madison for at least six months, or he'll lose his beloved soccer. Nothing could go wrong, right? Throw in a bit of awkwardness mixed with a few close calls and you've got a recipe for disaster....and a tiny tear in Noah's heavily protected heart. © 2018 *endless thanks and love to @half_a_hetero for helping me with the Italian in this book. I'm not a native Italian speaker, so having their help was invaluable. Follow them and show them some love!!* Amazing cover by @Grand_ Highest Rank: #4 in lgbt