"bazen tüm acıyı hatırlıyorum. bu yaralar iyileşecek gibi gözükmüyor. merak ediyorum, daha ne olabileceğini. kalabalık bir odada, yapayalnız hissediyorum. kendi kendime düşünüyorum, korku, pişmanlık, yalnızlık... benim bundan kaçışım yok." "hâlâ kalan yaralarını görüyorum. seni görüyorum louis, bakıyorum..."

I was captivated, but he was all too good at his profession: Harry Styles, Playboy. © wrenadler, All Rights Reserved. (Larry with some Ziam)

'I don't wanna be your friend, I wanna kiss your neck' https://www.instagram.com/thighhighlarry/ Copyright 2014, thighhighlarry. All Rights Reserved.

I've always been taught to hold my head high, to look presentable- to look better; to be better. I've always been told that to win, I have to be better than the others; turn everything into a competition worth winning. I've always been forced to be polite. But how can I compete? How can I rise above when I'm caught up in being nice to everyone I meet? ************************************************* Harry comes from a very rich family. His father is a powerful business owner and a very controlling man. Louis is a carefree guy who was dragged into going to the fancy dinner party by his equally careless friend.

UNFINISHED. I don't know if I'll ever finish it, but it's my baby and I couldn't possibly delete it. "You've got my devotion, but man I can hate you sometimes." In one year, Harry Styles' entire world flips upside down. With his father and sister gone, and his mother uprooting their lives and moving to Doncaster for a fresh start, despite barely having a dollar to their names, the poor boy has never felt more alone. But what happens when the rude boy with excessive tattoos and a rotten attitude shakes Harry to his core? What happens when Harry tries to learn more and even tries to heal the boy with a troubled and shattered past, despite everyone warning him to stay away? A story of love, hate, anger, and redemption. Can they heal each other in the way they both crave, or will the tale of their love be the very darkness that they're trying to escape?

"It's like my brain is playing hide and seek.. only one day I won't find it." Louis Tomlinson and Harry Styles have been best friends since kindergarten. The pair was inseparable. At age fifteen, they became more than just bestfriends. At age sixteen, there was a diagnosis, and the world came crumbling down on them. Louis had one of the rare cases of adolescent Alzheimer's. Now, at age 26, Harry can feel his love is slipping through his fingers. And there isn't a thing he can do about it. This is their story. [COMPLETED] Trailer: https://youtu.be/3sMDLWRY2pE COVER BY: @lostinstyles__ ©bittersweetlou2018

Everything has finally become too much for Louis to handle. The lies, fake relationships and fake smiles. The fans were right. They had always been right. Louis loves Harry but isn't allowed to have him. He's had enough and no longer wants to live this fake life. "You were right... All of you have always been right. Every look, every subtle touch... You were right." As he signs onto a live video chat for the last time and tells the world what they already knew, will it be enough to make Harry realize the true meaning behind Louis' words? "So in the next... 27 minutes I want to tell you the truth. Every last bit of it... But 27 minutes is all the time left before I say goodbye." --------- This book is originally written by Happinessintime, an amazing writer who's account disappeared a long time ago along with this amazing story.

Eager to reach his families expectations, Louis lives a life of secrecy and denial. In one of the most respected households in Doncaster, there's no room for mistake. But when Louis meets Harry styles in his first year of boarding school, it seems all the more difficult to keep himself In check.

I wrote this when I was like 15 so it's awful and horribly inaccurate regarding lots of stuff and the characters are really, really annoying. If it didn't have so many reads and votes and that I would delete it. PLEASE, if you want something with better writing and still full of angst, look at my other fics instead (Tempest is my fav) // Harry is upset, he just wants someone to care about him but he keeps pushing everyone away. Despite being packed tightly in a tour bus with the rest of the band, he still manages to avoid them. The boys begin to worry, Louis especially. // PSSST, i think my other stories are better! May 2020-July 2020