"A mate will love you and only you. No other can compare to you and he or she will treasure you above all and everything in the world," mommy says to me as she kissed my forehead. I sighed dreamily. I can't wait till I find my mate. He'll be perfect and handsome and funny and smart and brave and beautiful and he'll love me... only ever me... and... and... Present This hurts so much. Seeing and hearing and knowing my mate, the one who's supposed to love me above all, me, only me is in love with somebody else. I'd hate him if I could. I'd reject him if I could... I wish I could. %%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%% Important My books are written explicitly for a MATURE AUDIENCE 18 YEARS AND OLDER. There will be some instances/scenes/suggestions of sexual acts, crude language, MPREG and will portray gay relationships between males. If you do not enjoy stories of this nature please leave now. I will not condone/defend/accept any sort of attacks on my stories, my characters or myself. It is well within your right to choose what type of entertainment you prefer but I will not be blamed for your curiosity. Read at your own risk. ******************************************************

Theron Being an almost eighteen year old dad is hard. Responsibilities are piled sky high and the odds of me being a good dad like mine was to me is quite bleak. But the smile on my baby's face makes me think I'm doing alright. But along came Bobby Ray Jones, who built me up and broke me down. Losing my parents and my sister in one fell swoop didn't break me like he did. *** Bobby Ray What is it about that boy that makes me crazy? I don't know but man I want to find out. He's just... everything I can't have. This thing inside me that craves him will mess up all my hard work. I don't want to be gay. I don't want to be judged and ridiculed all my life. I don't want my family to shun me, disown me. But I want Theron, even if it's only in secret. *** Blaise Why does everyone I care about leave me? My mom, dad, my best friend and now, now it's the boy I fell in love with. Loneliness is my new normal and the expectation of my mom's death. Why can't my dad love me the way I am? The person I am? So what if I'm a flamboyant gay teen? I'm still his son right? I'm still me, just a more colorful me and all I want to do is fly free. ******* Smitty Ray Blaise, the prettiest boy I've ever seen. Maybe I should have just left him alone but when he says he loves me, I don't know... I feel like I'm Superman and the way he looks at me makes my insides melt. I never meant to hurt him; I just wanted to see what it would be like to have him, be with him and soak up all that sweetness that seems to come off him in waves. %%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%% I hope you all enjoy this book too and it is my entry to The Wattys 2016. The first chapter will be uploaded on the 27th day of July, 2016. %%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%% Copyright © 2016 by @notbackingdown All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced, copied or printed without express permission from the Author.

SECOND:: Other, Later, Younger, More recent, Newer, Alternative, Second-best CHANCE:: Unforeseen, Incidental, Accidental, Unplanned, Unexpected, Unpremeditated, Inadvertent, Unintentional, Unlooked-for, Casual, Fate, Fortune, Opportunity, Risk, Gamble Charles never met his mate and he knew by the dull ache and empty feeling in his heart that he had lost his mate to death. Now years after, he meets his second mate who has just recently lost his mate in battle. Charles offers to stay around and comfort his mate but his gesture is shot down. Not knowing what else to do after trying to work things with his mate who keeps ignoring his presence, Charles leaves. What happens when suddenly his mate comes knocking at his door seeking for a second chance to work things out between them only to find Charles already moved on. What will happen to their fate? Read and find out!! Warning: ManxMan Awesome cover by SuperSonicPaGer 😍

Prologue How does one find the strength to stand with a defiance rivaled only by his courage? How does one still possess purity when his innocence was stolen? Could one forgive the monsters? How does one learn to love for the first time? How does one learn to love himself? You may not understand, agree or accept the ways one chooses to deal with and surpass the darkness threatening to consume them. But bear witness to the few that rises from the ashes like a phoenix reborn. ***************************************************************************** This book has boyXboy scenes and contains instances where the main character self harms and is abused verbally and physically. If this isn't your kind of pie please don't take a slice. SLOWLY EDITING ************