*Made for mature people. Viewer descresion is advised. This book contains cursing, and possibly some smut. You are a little depressed in this book, but not too much. And your a tad bit suicidal. Until you find... him. So this is a Fanfic about you and my (used to be) idol. Each chapter is the name of one of his songs. I really hope you like it! Enjoy fake making out with him~ xD *I'm a bit older now, my writing style has changed slightly and I might not have as much time to write so please forgive me